VS
3..2..1....
...Fight!!
The winner gets it all......Heh heh heh...
Anyway...that's dog food and my rabbit loves it. My dog however prefers my rabbits carrots and vegetables. The only reason is that their souls have been switched. Well this represents the end of 2008. All the best for the coming year, everyone!
I sprained my thumb today, I wonder why it turned weak suddenly and 'cracked', there it goes......sprained. Oh...and before I forget,
wished everyone a late Merry Christmas and an early Happy New Year!!
Btw, here's a new skin for a new year.
Forget about Elm0 and go on with 2009. Yippeee!!!
It reflects on people around me.
True friends are hard to come by...
True love is hard to believe...
True colours don't usually show...
What do you think?
still need to finish my lab report by monday..sick now..bad semester.
big project coming up, starting on tuesday. hope I can still interact with my painful throat. 2 test before recess week. die...feeling so tired after burning a few midnight oil and then falling ill.
Nothing I can say, except DOWN DOWN DOWN. I AM FEELING SO DOWN!!! -_-"
Morning bugs surrounding me. First day of school, I totally didn't hear my alarm ringing. Luckily there was no tutorial. This morning had a stomachache, right after I open my eyes. So damn irritating, I was almost late.
Right on the first day of school, I have lab and its project somemore. Project for 5 weeks, it came as a shock, definitely to me. First lectures are all crap. Lecturers talking nonsense and students chit-chatting away among themselves. Everyday is almost like 8-5 working hours for me, plus one hour lunch break, without pay, still need to pay fees. No time for lunch ytd, ate one old chang kee stick and return for lessons. So very hungry. Today was a shorter day, coz got no tutorials, had subway for lunch with friends and back home!
Tmr going to popular and find some textbooks. My year 2 subjects are so difficult, this time chiat lat le. Hope I won't fail any subjects. Wish me luck, friends!
All the best to you all too!!
Conversation btw me & my brother>>
me: kor, I bought alot of things today, but all cannot eat de.
bro: what is it?
me: notes.
bro: is it?
me: yar. very expensive.
bro: haha. good lor. won't get fat.
Elmo loves you, I love elmo:)
Browsed through the lecture notes. It was like OMG!!! What's happening??? All that is in the notes are like aliens to me. Don't understand a SHIT in there! Hope this semester can be a smooth journey. Maybe I would prefer some interesting things to happen than just a boring normal semester. HOHOHO!!
i love elmo, elmo loves you:)
看袂落去
社会上有太多奇奇怪怪的代志
有真多人不愿意 面对现实
听讲算命的巷仔口 有真多人在排队
但是在我看来 无意义
哈啊 真无稀奇(有钱就判生 没钱就判死)
哈啊 我看袂落去
明那仔 我要赶十点的飞凌机
希望你暂时麦有代志
听 听 听讲我的烦恼是因为你
外面的空气 总是让人快要窒息
但是在我的世界里
Oh I just want be free
(Yeah) (Oh Come on)
RAP
这咧社会三不五时就会有很多
有真多人的感觉已经变的不会讲话
你咧讲啥货 我咧讲啥货 大家到底是咧讲啥货
这咧是啥货 那咧是啥货 黑白讲话
谁都想要过了轻松 有一天能出头天
（爱拜拜拜拜神明）
外面 世界这开阔 （这开阔）
你还不出去 （你你你咧等什么）
人生 明明是彩色的 你却甲它渐渐变作黑白
真心的朋友 找无一个
哈啊 I wanna be free
哈啊 My name is be free
Super Duper song...by this new singer..and jay actually directed his MV!! He wrote his own songs AND he is so style...especially his character, he actually rejected to join the PK competition during 星光大道2. Must support such talent.
4 more days to enjoy......
And I did this to my face today...,
SMILEZ~~~
AaAaaaaAaaahhhhhhhhhh......help me!!!
I hate toilets!-_-"
The Starry Night
Swirling clouds filled the night sky, stars ablazed, a crescent moon. Your eyes will follow the curves, moving about the painting. Makes one feel comfortable and at ease. A small town appears below the horizon. A church larger than other buildings, lies in the centre of the town, giving the town a sense of stability. A dark shadow at the left hand side gives a sense of isolation.
I especially like the swirling clouds in the painting, I don't know why.
Starry Night Over the Rhone
Three focus in this painting. First is that each star has its own orb of light. Second, the reflection of the artificial light, feeling magnificent, gives viewers the visual effects. Thirdly are the structures amongst the warm glow of artificial lights.
I simply enjoy viewing the reflection of artificial light:)
Cafe Terrace at Night
This artworks contributes a different perspective of the starry nightsky. The yellow wall attracts much more attention. A sense of balance is attributed to the dark cityscape silhouette to the right of the painting.
What makes me wonder is whatever that lies along that dark dark street. And whether will the starry nightsky become more beautiful if the streets were darker. Haaa...:P
The song "Vincent(Starry starry night)" is actually based on Vincent's famous drawings and also tells his biography. He committed himself to an asylum where he painted 'The Starry Night'. One, two years later, he attempted suicide by shooting himself in the chest. He survived, but died two days later from the wound. Vincent viewed his life as horribly wasted, personally failed and impossible.
The story of Vincent van Gogh's tragic life, filled with mental evils and artistic triumphs, lingers almost becoming that of legend. His work is still astounding millions around the world daily, and though he sold only one painting in his life, his influence on the outcome of art has been amazing and overwhelming. His paintings have reached new records when sold for hundreds of millions of dollars, and his persona has sparked number one hit songs. Vincent van Gogh has altered mankind forever... and he believed his life was a terrible failure!
Vincent painted a few thousand paintings throughout his lifetime, almost one per day over his last few years. Cool guy~!
Vincent (Starry, Starry Night)
Starry, starry night
Paint your palette blue and grey
Look out on a summer's day
With eyes that know the darkness in my soul
Shadows on the hills
Sketch the trees and daffodils
Catch the breeze and the winter chills
In colours on the snowy linen land
Now I understand
What you tried to say to me
And how you suffered for your sanity
And how you tried to set them free
They would not listen
They did not know how
Perhaps they'll listen now
Starry, starry night
Flaming flowers that brightly blaze
Swirling clouds and violet haze
Reflect in Vincent's eyes of china blue
Colours changing hue
Morning fields of amber grain
Weathered faces lined in pain
Are soothed beneath the artists' loving hand
Now I understand
What you trying to say to me
And how you suffered for your sanity
And how you tried to set them free
They would not listen
They did not know how
Perhaps they'll listen now
For they could not love you
But still your love was true
And when no hope was left inside
On that starry, starry night
You took your life as lovers often do
But I could have told you Vincent
This world was never meant for one as beautiful as you
Starry starry night
Portraits on in empty homes
Frameless heads on aimless walls
With eyes that watch the world and can't forget
Like the strangers that you've met
The ragged men in ragged clothes
A silver thorn a bloody rose
Lie crushed and broken on the virgin snow
Now I think I know
What you tried to say to me
And how you suffered for your sanity
And how you tried to set them free
They would not listen
They're not listening still
Perhaps they never will..
i feel so sorry or rather bad that i missed replying agatha's sms twice. the first time was last week's 5pm tj trng, second was last night. i actually replied her today at around 12plus and asked her what time was trng. so so sorry, i juz woke up and didn't realised that it was a saturday. felt so bad after that when she didn't reply till 5plus. i hope she is not angry with me. i also wished for her to be happy and healthy.
everytime i chance upon my phone, there is no msg or missed call. once i forget to check my phone, i will have sms and miss calls coming in. and often people would think that i refuse to reply them. well, i am used to it. don't really mind it though.
for the whole of today, i juz eat, sleep and watch tv. i lie down watching tv for too long, and i felt giddy when i stood up, my head becomes very heavy, my vision became blur then black, everything returns after a while. felt like i almost fainted, lucky there was a table for me to hold onto. quite long since i had such an experience. maybe there is too much of a sleeping beauty here. but its not going to be too long before sleeping beauty wakes up and becomes cinderella. haha.
i am bored......
很感激 这城市拥挤的交通
让你我 还能多相处几分钟
人潮中 怕失散所以轻轻拉你的手
一刻不放松 不放松
忍不住 想要爱你的冲动
不确定你属于我 会有点寂寞
你给的幸福 在我心中自由走动
抚平我每一个伤口
忍不住 想要吻你的冲动
不确定我的执着 能让你感动
我只能相信自己感受 不怕失落
关于你的一切 我想要比谁都懂
我的心 是被你设定的闹钟
提醒我 想你的时间不够用
为什么 平淡的事情现在忽然生动
是你改变我 你改变我
忍不住 想要爱你的冲动
不确定你属于我 会有点寂寞
你给的幸福 在我心中自由走动
抚平我每一个伤口
忍不住 想要吻你的冲动
不确定我的执着 能让你感动
我只能相信自己感受 不怕失落
关于你的一切 我想要比谁都懂
你是情人还是朋友
还没勇气想得太多
你的世界如此辽阔
我会在哪个角落
I can see that everyone has grown up alot. mostly attached except for me and char. think I am the last. haha. its okay. I am fine with my life being single currently. chit chat in little groups jumping into one another's conversation now and then. I had a nice chat with sharon, think I talk to her most of the time. me and her have the same hobby, that is to stay at home. haha. good hobby yah. I told her about my life and she told me hers.
then nus pple ask me to go for exchange program and stay in their hall. I will really considered that. then char ask me join hall vball, though I not staying in hall. I don't mind if I have a space to sleep overnight, cause the trainings end quite late, or unless the next day I got no lesson.
then me and sharon were the only two that never stay in hall. so quite out of conversation, but it was nice listening to their talks. everyone's doing well.haha.
qiaoyi wore singlet and fbt. haha. very funny. heard she planned to go swimming before that but it rained. lolx. last night, I asked qiaoyi how did she analysed me last time and this was what she said:
"u will keep things to urself but u will talk the things out when u want to and u plan for the future. although u look as if u dun care, slack. budden i feel that u treat each matter, or thing quite seriously."
I should say its quite true and I think she understands me more than I do. She really has the potential to be a psychologist.
Think I really need to go exercise and start my diet le. really growing fat. and I think I am the fattest among the vball gals. cannot liddat. need to start burning off my fats. I have decided to start tml. shall go running tml morning or afternoon coz I want to sleep, if it doesn't rains. I also heard from pple that sleeping can lose weight. maybe I should sleep to lose weight coz sleeping is my hobby too.
was telling char ytd that I have nth good, only a pair of good ears. I found that this is definitely true. Sometimes I really think my mouth is superglued, sealed up and refused to be opened. chat with her through the long night on msn. maybe that's my character, or maybe some things that happened cause this character build-up and I didn't even noticed.
I really think I am having frequent mood swings recently. And I don't know why. No reason. Or maybe there is, I just don't feel like admitting it. confused..
i told alot of pple that i had already let go regarding my cousin's pass away. however, i have been thinking of her on and off, not a very good feeling though. i really wonder whether am i facing reality or running away from it? or maybe becoz during tt period i was having exams so i held on to my feelings. to speak the truth, i did not realli cried out tt day though i realli feel like becoz i was afraid it will affect my exams. maybe some of the sadness is still buried deep down in my heart. think i need time to dig it out.
but i realli miss her loads...and i had one regret ever since she passed away.
i regret for not visiting her that last week.i thought i could visit her when my exams were over. but she didn't managed to wait for me. this regret is going to be with me for my lifetime.
meet them at bugis and we went for fish&co. caught up with them. it really has been very long since i talk to them. although some from NTU, but i seldom see them in school. nice day.most of us ordered the same dish, which was the best fish and chips. i couldn't finish my fries, it was definitely a big share manz. i also had the passionfruit drink. nice eh! was telling some of them why they choose bugis as i am quite sick of going bugis. have been visiting there quite often.
on the way home, was on the train with teeyan and mervyn, chatted with them. woo~ also nth much la. today's lunch, the funniest one was zhilian, she confirm getting lamer by the days. heard from zhilian she wasn't getting along very well with her friends in uni. lucky my uni friends are very nice. hohoho.
having a bit of sore throat lately, seems to be getting worse. ate too much heaty food ba.
wed vballers meeting at bugis again. why of all place, bugis?? haha. anyway, i haven reply qiaoyi. lazy to reply ba. wonder if qy sees what i am blogging, she might be mad at me for not replying her sms. coz today peirong was asking whether did i change my phone number coz i didn't reply her that day.
maybe i having mood problems sia. feel like then i reply pple's sms, dun feel like then i ignore. lolx. one of my bad habits ba...
the address is http://www.wretch.cc/blog/luvc0930
feel free to visit it..can't bear to abandon this blog..think i will still be keeping this blog..haha.
have a nice day~!
realli miss her manz...dun think i will be doing well for my exams..this week got 4 papers...finished 2 le..left 2 more to go..
kyla was cremated today...damn sad...sad...sad...she is only 25 this year...i wonder how old i can live till..life's unexpected...if people noticed..her story is on today's xin ming wan bao...but its a very short one...her story was definitely longer than that...even when she couldnt move, she still managed to wrote her last piece of words for her family, relatives and friends through the help of her teacher...
hope she is doing well now in heaven...
miss you lotx, Kyla!
May God Bless her with such lovely moments sooner......
have been visiting my dear cousin kyla. She was only 24 years old when she was diagnosed with a third stage rare tissue cancer, pecoma, in july07. She underwent a 6 hours major op to remove her womb , part of large intestine, lymph nodes that had cancer cells around it and also some around her veins on the left leg. After the op, she had a stoma (an opening which allows the removal of feces bypassing the rectum) done at the iluem.
Her mum couldn't take the stress and was in a state of depression, taking sleeping pills almost everyday. Kyla however was strong and determined to fight against the cancer cells. She told her mum,"you've to go back home and rest well if not you'll not be able to look afer me when i need you.". These words were indeed very touching. Everyone was happy seeing her determination to live on. Her father had to deal with her situation and also his wife's depression causing him to breakdown a few times.
After undergoing 4 months of chemo, the doctor gave her a MRI scan. The result was that her cancer cells were actually spreading. Some growing on the kidneys, ureter, bladder, around her veins. The biggest was actually 7.7cm by 6.2cm. She herself felt sad and she cried. But her determination was still there. She had to take morphine pills 3 times daily which was a small dosage as compared to now. She started to believe people's experiences and started consuming different prescription and even took chinese medicine. Basically, she tried almost everything and everyway there was. from Chinese medicine to beetroot to lemongrass to mangosteen to chanting buddha scripts to..... Her weight dropped to 30+kg. She had backaches everyday and was unable to be in one position for long.
During my recess week, I visited her. but the next week, she was lying in hospital. Injection of a stronger painkiller than morphine, blood test, scans, drips...her cancer cells actually grew to almost 30cm which the doctor describe that it was as big as a football. Her parents were very sad. now and then, tears could be seen welling up in their eyes, sighing and yawning. They visit her every morning at 6.30am till 10pm at night. her father's big belly had actually flatten and disappeared. She had very bad backaches increasing the baseline of painkiller everyday and asking for a perch(additional dosage of painkiller on top of baseline requirement) from 2 times a day to once every 2hours. Her stomach was bloated and her legs swollen due to the removal of lymph nodes. However she was still eating well and smiling now and then. Her ureter was block due to the enlarged tumor, she had tubes diectly connected to her kidneys to drain out the excessive fluids. After another few days, the doctors had metal tubes inserted into her ureter to assist her to drain out fluids into the bladder. but one of her kidneys was found to be disfunctioning. She was able to released by herself after that.
all these was not for long...a few days later, she couldnt take the pain much more and she became frustrated. I visited her today and the baseline for her painkiller is at the max already. this time it was her urethra that was block by the tumor and her released of fluids was not to the expected level. so a tube was inserted into the bladder through urethra. Her was half-concious due to the large dosage of painkillers. she was even dozing off while having dinner. Her elder sister was beside her all the time. puffy eyes and wasnt looking good as well. doctors said that she needs a spinal anesthesia because she had reached the max dosage of painkiller allowed.
I felt so sad when i look at her. happy memories filled me. the times when we played tgt and how she dote on me. how she tied my hair for me, her cheerful looks long ago, dinners tgt, midnight soyabean before the major op, potato chips and tv....many many more...tears well up my eyes many times but they didnt dripped down in front of her..the more her smiles, the worse we feel...and now she is half-concious..eating with the slightest energy she has.
I hope her sufferings can end sooner but i can bear to see her leave...oh man...i am so confused...:"(
I have lessons tmr. but i cant get to sleep.:"(
