JCT's over, finally. I studied but I cant seem to answer the questions. It was a disaster, I blank out totally. No more hope. I am going to fail at least 2 papers. Wad to do?? haix...I really did study. But I guess my mind is just not there though my eyes are staring at the notes. Always drifting to my own dreamland where there is peace and no quarrels btw family members and there is love and care and concern and most importantly a world without gamblers, a place where people dun talk about money. I think I am going crazy. I am being a loner, isolation from people, and drinking is just a joy to me.

I have been sleeping at 5,6 am these few days. Should I say I am busy playing and studying or am I suffering from insomnia. Different dreams every day, different thoughts every month, different age every year. Things are changing every second. I need sleeping pills or any drug that cause drowsiness will do. :-/

~Its really difficult to fake a smile sometimes, it just makes things worse.~

`That's what my life is about>>fake emotions.`