h0lidayS n0w. yet, i dun feel happy at all. i am becoming a loner. i like to stay at home but nobody's there to talk to me. and i learned wad is loitering. people who IS suppose to be at home with me is not. Why??? i hate this. i really dun like this kind of life. how i wish there aren't any holiday. or can i have training everyday?? i might feel better that way. i feel like crying. but i dun want to cry. i dun wan to flood myself with tears every now and then. i am sure how i feel now is worse than being in hell:"(

i wish i can confide to someone. but can pple understand how i feel?? dun think so. pple around me are so much luckier den me, however they dun cherished it. sad......