thursday was cny carnival...had my hair twisted and sprayed red..jack and jaryl actually called me da jie...haha..so funny...aniwae my class sold candy floss...not sure about any profits..went back early for reunion dinner..hmmm..ate prawns, abalone, fishballs, crabsticks...alot of food sia..

ytd had training in the afternoon den dinner at fung's house..order pizza..the chicken wing was so nice..love it man..stuff alot of othe cny cookies into my stomach oso...got these two little kids...so cute..haha..the little boy actually fried noodles using my hair...den isabella was worse...the girl put hairclips all over her hair..haha..we went home at ten..v tired...

to agatha...cheerx yea...it is good sometimes to have pple scolding u...at least they do show care and concern for u..precious it gal...last time i oso dun like my mother scolding me all the time...but now i want someone to scold me when i get home oso dun have...coz most of the time there is not a soul in sight:)

Anyway, Happy Chinese New Year Eve everybody!!!:P

happy??sad??depressed???down???up??right, left???i am juz confused.....wad shld i do???or shld i wait for things to get better...do miracles happen??maybe they do:)...haix...

one word: FRUSTRATED!!

hurt my back...went to see doctor on tuesday..injection..it was okay at first..den later very suan.leg very hard to lift up to walk.rested at home.ytd better le.onli one side pain at times..hope today will be a better day..heex...

anyway have to rest for 2 weeks to be exact..good...means when sch reopen i can skip pe...hahaha..but quite low coz sat's friendly match against NUS cannot play..i long wanted to play this match le..hmmm...nvm ba..pray that everything will be alrite after 2 weeks..if not..i oso not sure wads gg to happen next.

cHeerZ:)

woahh~~...holiday will soon be over..had lots of fun.vball chalet, vball camp, cball christmas countdown nite...hmmm..i went out mostly with my vball mates ba..feel that our team is very united.we muz jiayou for the competition...sure can make it de..

to be exact, i am left with one week...struggling with my hmwk coz i onli did 30 chem mcqs..help...i dun have maths tys..i haven touch physics..oh no..well..anyway this holiday i had fun till i realli feel like leaving school for good..hehx..

a question appear and i rejected it....this time it appear again...i feel guilty to reject it again...so i left it hanging dere...i juz want to concentrate on my studies first...anyway if u think u can win my heart, go ahead....coz i onli treat u as my friend and nth else...lastly, i juz wan to say tt i realli hate tt question:)

monday had trng in the afternoon den i had ban mian for dinner...yummy...so long neva eat le...haha.hmm..tuesday trng again den lunch out with friend..filled my stomach with sushi and fish bee hoon..walk around..wanted to go causeway point de..neva go in the end so wen home to bath.too full for dinner..but ate some rojak and shared a cup of soya bean milk with *baolim*..actly is i wan drink de.but cannot finish..let her drink more milk den can become bigger...hahaha...

fungus is crazy...trng ask us to do stupid exercises..how am i supposed to do sit up on the hard floor...pain one lehx...kaox...

anyway bought ps2...shared with my brother...$395..i fork out $150..quite x..but worth it...bought a new pair of volleyball shoes too...$50..love it alot..friday going to watch harry potter with yenling and some others..cant wait to watch it:P

its not that i dun wan to go but i am scared...i scared i cannot continue with wad i love doing now...

i noe its 5plus in the morning alreadi. but i still haven go to bed. shall go to bed soon.very pissed off by the maplestory server. cant get in for the whole day till now still cannot. lousy server. read some blogs juz now. char sounds so funny. mrs chua happy den miss chua happy. miss chua ahx.....funny woman. heex. its raining now, heavy rain sia. morning le. but i feel like playing games now. maybe i shall not sleep. hmmmm....see first ba:)

shall update wad i did the past few daes..hmmm..last mondae fever...fridae diarrhoea...but i still went sentosa with my family..it was my father's burfdae.cycle dere till butt pain..den drown my dog in the sea but it survived.we had a feast for dinner.woa..ate alot.

saturdae..morning went for pw meeting for final touch up.den home.my brother bought chicken wings and otah for bbq.went seletar bridge to bbq.lucky i didnt lose my voice. sundae had turtle soup for breakfast cum lunch.yummy!! nite time went for indian food coz my father's worker gave a treat. not bad. first time i ate indian food. they didnt have plates.everything was served on the banana leaf.

mondae op. think i enjoy it and was quite satisfied with my performance. after tt went lunch at pizza hut with yenling and qiao.had Curry Zazzle baked rice. they were gg for job interview at redhill. had nth to do so i followed them. filled in the form for fun oso. den we walk past this shop tt sells toys for kids. the toys help in building the kids' IQ.we stayed there for almost 2 hrs. the man even taught us how to play a few games coz he tot we wanted a job there.the games were fun man. we play till we forget the time. went back by mrt. lucky i found a seat coz my leg cannot tahan le.ate dinner at northpoint with my friend.den home!!my mum bought bbq stingray and otah for me oso. i eat and wait for her to finish bathing and join me but i failed. fell asleep on the floor while eating stingray. wonder how can my mum managed to bath for 1hr in the bathroom woke up and found out tt my mum finished the stingray. had a otah den went to my mum's bed and fell asleep again. think i woke up in the midnite and sleepwalk to my bed. haha;)

tuesday training in the morning den afternoon went agatha's house to play ps2 with charlene.so fun.especially the bomberman. i was screaming all the way. i very lousy, keep dying de. cannot blame. who ask me cock eye and greedy. keep looking for egg and life jacket and neva see the bomb. but char damn pro la. keep winning. had a nice day at aga's house. heyx, thanz agathaaaa!!!

oh ya...and yenling cheerx yea~:D anywae yenling, u got burfdae mehx??? hahaha:P now gg 6am le. buaix!

going for greyish colour...hehe..new blogskin:)

OP in abt 12 hours time...help..need to go memorise script le.nitey!! :P

Fever...so didnt go training todae.did PW at hub den went home.feeling alrite le so bought mac's large fries...ate it..after a while, my temperature rise again.the moral of this is that do not eat junk food when u are sick.

anywae had panadol le. should be getting well soon. heex..

Heard that eating chocolates can make one happy. its a lie. i ate almost one whole packet of M&Ms and i dun feel any better.

h0lidayS n0w. yet, i dun feel happy at all. i am becoming a loner. i like to stay at home but nobody's there to talk to me. and i learned wad is loitering. people who IS suppose to be at home with me is not. Why??? i hate this. i really dun like this kind of life. how i wish there aren't any holiday. or can i have training everyday?? i might feel better that way. i feel like crying. but i dun want to cry. i dun wan to flood myself with tears every now and then. i am sure how i feel now is worse than being in hell:"(

i wish i can confide to someone. but can pple understand how i feel?? dun think so. pple around me are so much luckier den me, however they dun cherished it. sad......

i cAnt gEt to sLeep, cAnt c0nceNtraTe 0n mY pHysiCs. Maths N cHem papERs iS stiLL iN mY heAd. Wad iF i fAil 1 0f tHem 0r b0tH...mY ec0ns sUre fAil dE. i HavE n0 m0Re sUbjEcts t0 uSe lE. wAd if i cAnn0t gEt pr0m0tEd?? iT sHall bE mY oWn fAulT...c0z i didNt fEEl liKe sTudYing f0r pr0m0s N i hAvE bEen sLackinG wHen tHe 0tHers Are sTudyiNg s0 hArd.

fEel liKe dR0wNing mYselF in driNks.....v0DkA iCE?? bArcArdi??? n0t g00d en0uGH....hElp..............:'(

Hell0!! 2 months never bl0g le..wonder if my bl0g misses me..hehex...lazy to blog anywayx.but todae.......todae.....suddenly got the urge to bl0g and here i am... hahax..2 months realli fly pass manx.i still remember 1 and a half month ago, i said i muz start studying for promos and not wait till the last minute...and then...now left 1 month and i am still like so carefree....haven even start on any subject..it always turn out this way..i dun understand..can someone juz give me a kick in my butt so that i can move forward???

My PW....todae had meeting at 10am, national library...didnt do much..sat there...add some little things into part of the survey analysis...den sat there and stare into space...i went is juz basically to be present and to pass my e0m to Teeyan so that i wun have to go down to school tml...sianx...he told me would have alot to do todae de...cheat my feelings...made me go there and slack..and this Teehong, everytime say i slack..he didnt even turn up todae..wonder where he go..

friday nite i took the survey results and did the analysis till midnite...at 2 plus cannot tahan den doze off...was msging Zz den..she sae she decided to continue studying the next morning..so i followed her..ended my PW...went to sleep..Zz say give me morning call at 7am....anyway i woke up at 9 plus..no morning call...guess she oso cannot wake up de...heex...she is the sleeping worm...she woke up later den me anyway....

tml holidays!!!! yea...can rest at home le...but still got promos muz study...hopefully i can successfully start my revision tml...haha...i am damn slack..help...tues dun think got time to study..going out to play....hahahaha...

oh yah...N fRiday was 2nd September...isabella's birthday...i share prezzie with qiaoyi and agatha...anyway..isa received alot of present...wonder she took cab home or her father fetch...when lesson end i didnt see her le...took bus with sharon...she was on her way to meet secondary school friend with qiaoyi ba....i guess..but qiaoyi went off first....chat all the way on the bus with sharon...she was turning my whole wallet out...quite fruitful yea~>>she found alot of rubbish in my wallet...hehex...

promos...promos....hope i can be promoted...and econs....dreadful man...sure gg to fail econs again...but i am going to try my best....hehex...physics...i am dead for physics...all the chapters after circular motion is terrible....i dun noe wad the teacher is talking abt in class...but i still keep nodding my head...help!!!..blame it on my head...understand nod...dun understand oso nod...die die...chem was alrite....maths...hmmmm...integration...i hate it!!!! my tutorial are all in a mess...cancel here and there..but cant blame anyone...i lazy to do...haha...:P

aNd last tuesday...we had friendly against pasir ris sec...we won...haha...so happy..think our team not bad ehx...but that day i wasnt in my best form coz of some reason la...hmmm...abit slow in receiving balls...and my eyes...help...cannot see the ball clearly...how...blame the eyes ba...training going to stop for 1 month...think after 1 month i will be back to basics...have to train all over again...i hope we can still have training once a week...if not i will grow fatter oso...since i pon PE everytime...i still owe 1000 skipping...mr fung neva cancel for meeee!!!!..damn~..

Think i blog quite alot le...hehex....u pple out there, welcome back to read my blog.....i noe u all like to read my bl0g...hahahahaha......:oX

hMMmmm...exAms are ovEr lE......yEEeaaaaAHHhh.h.......so happY...wenT to seoul gArdEn yEstErday aFtEr pHysiCs papEr..todAe weNt kb0x dEn pasTamAnia.wAh...sPend qUite al0t iN tW0 dAys mAnx...tMl sTill g0t bbQ....g0inG t0 dRink dEn sUre hAfta sPend al0t $$ aGain....nExt tUesdAy sEntoSa....eilEEn's n0t fRee t0 g0...0nE leSS peRs0n...iSa 0s0 n0t g0iNg...sHar0n 0s0....liKe al0t n0t g0ing....tMl bbQ g0t sTay 0Ver....yEar1s 0nli i sTayiNg....EEeeee....wHy liddAt De......hAte iT man....

oH ya....lAst m0ndAy i jUz wEnt sEntoSa...mY br0tHer's birThdaY aNd wE wEnt dEre t0 cElebrate...tH0ugH i wAs siCk tHe dAy bEf0re....s0mem0Re g0 sEE d0ct0r aNd haVE injeCti0n...bUt i stiLL g0 sEnt0sA tHe neXt dAy witH sliGht fEvEr....aNd sEeing tHe d0cT0r isn't fUn at All.....mY muM wEnt t0 tEll tHe d0ct0r tHat mY neCk abniT sw0llEn dEn tHe d0ct0R sAe yAr abit....wAh liEw...sCaRed mE...liKe i kEna cAncEr......siAo 0nE.....bUt tRutHfUlly abiT sw0llen lA.....dEn mY mUm aDvisE mE n0t t0 sH0ut t00 muCh during tRaining...dUn thiNk iTs g0t anythiNg t0 d0 wiTh sh0utinG riTe??....bUt tHink i wiLL stiLL lisTen t0 hEr la...hAHa...i 0nlY like tHe paRt 0f tHe injEcti0n wHen sEeinG tHe d0ct0R tt dAy......i aCtuAlly wAtcH tHe wh0lE injEcti0n...heex...vEry fun lEhx...

laSt wEEk 0F h0lidAys....didn't rEalli sTudy....wEnt 0ut 0n m0ndAy, tUesdAy, wEd aNd tHurs....sTarTed 0n fRidAy...hAha....n0t iN tHe m00d t0 sTudy aCtuaLLy.....m0ndAy's eC0ns teSt iS a mEss...eSsay quesTi0n eVery paRt i wr0Te 0nE paRagrApH 0nli....w0ndEr wAd tHe tEachEr is gg t0 saE....dRq tHe laSt quEsti0n i fElt s0 sick wHen l00king aT tHe quesTi0n THat i leFt iT blank aNd wEnt 0n T0 tHe mCq bEf0re tiMe eNds....mCq aNyh0w Guess....i wAs r0llinG mY eRaser f0r answers....iF i cAn gEt m0Re tHAn 20 f0r eC0ns iT w0uld bE a Surprise.....

tuEsdAy....mAths aNd Gp wAs 0kiE....jUz h0pE i cAn paSs mY GP......anyway tHe hAll wAs dAmn c0ld...n0t a very g00d envir0nMent f0r eXam...i rAther tHey usE tHe fAn.....mY fingErs wEre fr0zEn.....brAin frEEze....cAnn0t tHink aNd write....wEdneSday cHem....mCq is tHe w0rst...i rolleD mY eRAseR aGain...bUt firSt qUestion i copiEd tHe pErs0n bEsidE mE dE aNswEr.....i sAw sHe vEry c0nfiDently circle tHe aNswer ma....den i Duhno h0w t0 d0...s0 copY hEr's lo...sEcti0n B aNd C wAs aLritE....phYsiCS i l0vEd tHe mCq...tT's tHe 0nli pArt i Am c0nfiDent....sEcti0n C eSsay qUestion....aLL 3 Question s0 haRd...dUno wHich 0nE t0 ch00se....sEcti0n B i dIdn't d0 tHe wh0le 0f QUestion 5....c0Z i dUno wAd's viScouS f0rce....i hAd mEntAl bl0ck wHen i sAw visc0us f0rcE....i sTudiEd iT in The cAnteeN bEf0rE eNteRinG tHe hAll dE..diAoz......lEt's h0pE i cAn pAss 2 sUbjEct And GP.....n0 nEEd sEe prinCiplE can lE...mY mUm sAe sHe wUn g0 ANd sEe tHe principAl De if i kEna......sHit Man....mUz prAy hARd........

siAnz...i aM b0rEd........aNd thiS cHuh0nG iS f0rcinG mE to chat witH hiM....diAox~..haha....remind mE pplE....that i Am goinG t0 kick hiS aSs tHe nExt tRaininG i sEe hiM.....

sEri0uslY.....talkinG aBt mY vbAll sKills....mY pEak is rEalli 0vEr lE.....hAve bEEn tRaininG f0r aLm0sT hAlf a YeAr aNd still cAn't gEt bAck wAd i hAd wHen i wAs sEc 4....rEalli fElt vEry depRessinG aT timEs durinG trAininGs....fEel liKe giVinG iT uP......wAd cHuhonG sAid 'u can peak again, and peak higher the next time'.....this iS oso wAd i wAs h0piNg f0r thiS half yEar.....bUt iT sEems rEal haRd.......

My l0ve f0R y0u hAs sink t0 tHe b0tt0m 0f tHe 0Cean...

hAd tRaininG 0n wEd anD fRi...l0st t0uCh lE...plAyeD bAdly...

wEd g0t 3 nEw girlS wh0 cAme f0r vBall tRial.tHe pasiR riS 0nE wAs g00d.hMMmmm...tHiNk sHe plAyEd bEttEr dEn me.yEar2s wEnt t0 plaY 0s0..s0 l0ng neVa plaY wiTh tHem lE..fElt s0 g00d..hAd lUnch Den h0mE t0 sLack.n0 0nE wAs aT h0mE till abt miDnigHt.hAd mY 0wN dinNer.siAn~....

tHurs....m0rning wEnt sCh00l f0r ec0ns whiCh i dUn uNdErsTand a w0rD sHe sAe.jUz c0py aNd c0pY tHe AnsweRs.dEn pW mEeting wHich wAs liKe 15 miNs?? dEn very b0rEd aNd wAs feEliNg l0W aFtEr wAd hAppeNed tHe niTe bEf0re.didn'T fEel liKe g0iNg h0Me s0 eArlY...wEnt bEd0k liBraRy t0 slAck.did nEwspApEr aRticlE, rEad s0me b00ks aNd c00kiNg b00ks.qUite iNtEreSting.b0rr0WeD 2 b00ks aNd went h0me.rEaCheD h0me wHicH wAs eMptY exCept f0r mY br0tHer wH0 wAs sLeepiNg.wAtCh tV till niTe.hAd dinnEr wiTh mY br0tHer.wEnt f0r a dRink.hMMm....bArcArdi.s0 l0ng neVa dRink lE.fElt s0 niCe aFteR tHe driNk.wAs mSgiNg zZ aT tHat tiMe.tH0uGh i dRaNk bUt i tHink sHe sLept 0ff eArlieR dEn mE...hEEx...

fRi g0t 2 nAs aNd 2 pAsiR riS de.3 0f tHem wEre g00d.i wAs plAyiNg dRuNkeN vBall aFtEr laSt nitE's dRink....fElt s0 slEEpy.lUckY eilEEn wAs tHere.sHe wAs mAkiNg a l0t 0f n0isE wHicH eNc0urAgEd mE t0 sH0ut dUring tHe gAme.hAd a fEw niCe gAmes.aFter tRaininG hAd luNch opP0siTe sCh dEn g0 h0mE lE.eVeryb0dY liKe vEry bUsy liDdAt.d0Txx.......wEnt h0mE.ntH t0 d0.dEcidEd t0 hElp mY mUm m0p fl00r.mSging zZ aGain till 12 plUs.i d0zEd 0ff.w0kE uP sUddeNly aNd rEply hEr.aFtEr a wHile n0 rEply fr0m hEr....gUeSs shE slEEp lE.i wEnt t0 slEep 0s0....

t0dAe.slAck aT h0mE.i wAs in fr0nT 0f tHe tV tHe wh0lE dAy wiTh pHysiCs KinEmatics n0tEs iN fr0nT 0f mE....0nlY t0ucHeD 3 oR 4 paGes.paThetic...i sTill g0t eNgliSh c0mp0 haVen d0.neeD hAnd in bY 14th jUne....i think..and t0daE isH.....11th juNe!!!! hElp......i wAn t0 wRitE bUt tHe pr0blEm iS i dUn0 h0w t0 sTaRt a comp0.....hAix..

we were stranger, starting out on a journey.
never dreaming, what we'd have to go through.
now here we are, i'm suddenly standing...
at the..beginning with you.
no one told me, i was going to find you.
unexpected...what u did to my heart.
when I lost hope...you were there to remind me.
this is the start.....
& life is a road, i wanna keep goin'
love is a river, i wanna keep flowing.
life is a road, now&foreva, wonderful journey.
i'll be there, when the world stops turning...
i'll be there, when the storm is through
in the end, i want to be standing
at the beginning with you.