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2009-12-13T20:38:00.002+08:00

A family dinner...its just that simple......

2009-11-15T21:44:00.002+08:00

I have been really busy this semester. There were a total of 6 projects. I am proud to announce here that I have completed them. All the stupid reports have made me feel as if I am not myself anymore. Exams are coming up and I still have alot to catch up. What I meant by catch up is to literally memorise eerything on the lecture notes. There haven't been much calculations this semester and I am so sick of reading notes filled with words and words and no numbers at all.

Though all the projects in school have ended, but I still have one presentation left for the tyre design competition which we were not told the date for presentaton yet. I am just hoping it won't be during the exams. All not prepared and I am going to be the one who will be presenting the whole thing. The thought of it makes me tremble.

Sometimes I am just too truthful that I hurt others, but I felt guilty right after saying words that I don't really mean it. Do forgive me cause I understand that one of my weak points is that I am just too straightforward. Is it wrong for me to be myself??

Does posting things here help?? well, it does make me feel better somehow. Time to prepare for the exams!!! がんばって!!!!

2009-07-30T14:24:00.002+08:00

haix...peeps do forgive me for turning down outings.. coz i am really down with alot of pimples...they make me dun feel like gg out...hope it will get better before school starts which is 1 week away only...oh no no no....:(

My dear agamon will be flying off tonight!!! So excited for her...she will be away for half a year... it will be 2010 till we meet again. Cant celebrate her 21st birthday with her. Hope she does well over there. Best wishes to Agatha!! I will miss you!:)

2009-07-14T22:26:00.002+08:00

It has been a few days that this stupid ulcer, which I duno how, got onto my tongue. This causes speaking, eating and singing disabilities. I cant pronounce some words properly. This sounds so shitty. I never really chew my food these two days, and I took almost an hour to finish half a packet of rice today. I gave up eating in the end.

Looks like its getting better which sounds good. I juz hope I can wake up tmr and find that ulcer gone. Oh my......damn damn ulcer...fuck off now!!!!!

2009-07-04T14:34:00.006+08:00

Saturday, decided not to be lazy. Woke up and went sentosa with the volleyball peeps. I was late for half hour which I would claim that I am early as compared to how late MAE peeps normally could be. HAHAHA... It drizzled intially and we played asshole daidee, until I juz became the asshole, the rain decided to stop. How lucky man!! No courts was available, so we juz played without court until lihui's friend lend us their court. We played one match and I seriously lost touch with the courts simply after 4 months, played like shit.

Monday was supposed to be little india trip, to visit my ah bangs. But i had tt thing so I missed the chance of seeing my ah bangs.WAHAHAHA...
Tuesday I was forced to go causeway point for dinner with mao and SH. KY and CC pangseh us. End up playing arcade again after dinner. And I got high score for one game lor, but the screen show once only, so couldnt take the photo.
Wednesday was shopping in the afternoon with those bunch of lazy pigs and Seoul Garden at night! Long time since I touch seoul, those marinated chicken. I prefered the charsiew one. Jeremy came late for dinner, and he actually went in without paying and no one noticed. In the end, we paid 6 pax for 7 pax. HAHAHA...feel so cheapo...but it was fun!!

this was my dessert...

KY eyeing cecilia's chicken...

The two guys...SH and jeremy...

CC and HS...eating so happily...
Left out MX in the photos...cause he was on my right and the rest was on my left or opposite me...Plus I left out myself in the photos also, becoz I was buzy taking photos or rather eating la...heex..

After seoul garden, thursday was exercise day. Played badminton at Yishun sports hall, so convenient for me lah. Then me and HS walked from katib to northpoint in the heavy rain. Met up with SH and KY for movie. Anyhow choose one movie, its called I LOVE YOU, MAN. End up, the movie was nice lor.
Anyway, i cant believe its really fated that me and my cousin will meet each other de lor. I saw her while deciding wad movie to watch. Then, saw her in the same cinema as me. And then again, she sat juz next to me and my friends' seats.
After movie, Mao joined in for dinner at the jap foodcourt at northpoint. She really dun mind gg down to yishun juz for tt jap food. Really too free...haha..

Their IA gg to start soon. I guess we can only meet up for dinner. Left me and HS, and she has got work!!!! OMG...I am the only one who is gg to be so free...gg to slack until sch start.. OR pple reading this, U can try asking me out. HOHOHOHOHO!!!!

2009-06-27T00:24:00.002+08:00

Watch Drag me to hell on tuesday with HS again. She actually jumped a few times which I didnt expect. Hahaa...but I went laughing like mad when the old woman's dentures fell out of her mouth. HS was like slapping my hand, then I realised I was the only one laughing. So damn embarassed, luckily it was dark in the cinema.

Maomao fell sick. haix...there goes our sentosa trip..waiting for next week. More is coming up. Buffet, movie, Kbox, sentosa, maybe badminton....haha...a bunch of lazy bums tt laze at home everyday camping on msn and facebook. TT's wad MAE student are like. IA going to start soon for some of them, almost half of them. sianz, have to wait for after work then can go out. BORED!!

Thursday evening went in JB with Shiyuan for dinner. The milk tea was really really very nice. He went in to topped up his petrol, so I just tagged along. He was claiming that I really too free. Oh well, I am really FREE. HAHAHA...

Sentosa outing tmr with vball girls??...haix...lazy to go...I duno why...kinda weird. Just hoping tt my that monthly thing will faster come so tmr I dun hafta go. Hmmmm.... -_-

2009-06-17T00:54:00.003+08:00

Watch Night at the museum 2 today. The cinema was really empty. Loved the show. We also saw this preview on the movie which I think is coming up in November, its a cartoon "UP". Its pretty cute. It shows this house which flew up into sky with lots of balloons tied to it.

Still got one more movie which I really really want to watch. Its 'Drag Me to Hell'!!! Shall find another day to watch. And I cant believe that I actually told my friend that I am going home for dinner after the movie, which I dun usually do. In the end, I settled myself with some leftover food at home...and I had maggi mee for dinner the previous day. This sounds so shitty, but its real. Because nobody's at home to provide me with free dinner:(

Just realised recently that I have been spending far too much, digging into my own savings. Think I need to save for the rest of my holiday.This also means no more good food(good, I can diet again), no shopping(but GSS is here), just staying at home(I can just rot). Maybe go for runs ba, can keep fit. Ahhhh....the feeling of being broke is so terrible.

Anyway, I still want to watch movies. Another new movie, 'The taking of Pelham 123'. Oh man...cant stand it..should I contnue watching??

2009-06-14T12:38:00.003+08:00

Long time ever since I post. Guess no one has been visiting it or will be visiting it. But i would still like to do some updates since I am damn hell free now. Ahhaha!!

It has been a busy semester cum EID special sem. Busy because of IHG which luckily didnt bring my GPA down. My surf&sweat pay is still with qiaoyi & my gold medal is nowhere to be seen.

EID was tiring but fun. Especially my groupmates, they were a bunch of fun guys, so happening and hilarious bunch of people. We went kbox, movie, jb and steamboat tgt. Had lots of fun with them.Though we didnt win anything, but overall it was a memorable one.

After EID was outings with engr peeps, went to TOPONE ktv on monday, you can actually sing for 7hours for $16nett with freeflow drinks. It was simply worth it. Wednesday, we intended to make a cheesecake for Hweesien's bd, we bought the ingredients and ended up loitering around amkhub because Suvie didnt return home as planned. Waited until 9plus, then we stroll to her house and left the ingredients at her doorstep.

Thursday was Hweesien's bd celebration, we were supposed to surprise her at her voiddeck. However, both parties ended up stunned. After which, we went PS to shop around, we played some arcade games and I ended up with muscleaches the next day. We watch 'Ghost of Girlfriends Past' until 11plus before heading home. It was a touching comedy la. Not too bad.

Havent watch night at the museum 2, thinking of watching this coming week. Planning to go sentosa too. All yet to be planned...

2009-01-01T00:09:00.002+08:00

Happy New Year to everyone I know!!

Here, first post of 2009 shall be dedicated to Agatha Soh Kaili since its her birthday.

Happy 20th birthday to my dear AgaMon!! Wish you luck in your studies, love, health, sports and everything! Time goes by quickly, now you are 20 years old. Missed the days in CchMs and TjC where we would celebrate almost every occasions tgt. Anyway, hope to see you soon!!

Next, I would like to reply to another person who is turning 21 soon...I will be attending your party:)

2008-12-31T09:55:00.008+08:00

On this last day of 2008......the battle begins... VS

3..2..1....
...Fight!! The winner gets it all......Heh heh heh... Anyway...that's dog food and my rabbit loves it. My dog however prefers my rabbits carrots and vegetables. The only reason is that their souls have been switched. Well this represents the end of 2008. All the best for the coming year, everyone!

2008-12-28T00:23:00.005+08:00

My appetite have been growing tremendously and so does my weight. I really need to shed off some weight before I turn overweight. So I am now officially back on diet. Horrible people out there, stop tempting me with food. I am serious this time round. Horrible people, wait till I burn off 6-7 kgs of fats and let you see! Hahaha......

I sprained my thumb today, I wonder why it turned weak suddenly and 'cracked', there it goes......sprained. Oh...and before I forget,
wished everyone a late Merry Christmas and an early Happy New Year!!

Btw, here's a new skin for a new year.
Forget about Elm0 and go on with 2009. Yippeee!!!

2008-12-19T21:16:00.003+08:00

Training and slacking these few weeks. We won the match against Hall6.
Stayed overnight once in qiaotopus's room. Felt so boring, maybe I am not used to staying in hall.
I am bored but lazy:)

'Love looks not with the eyes, but with the mind; And therefore is winged Cupid painted blind'

2008-12-01T22:39:00.002+08:00

I hate crabs and I love crabs.

Made a visit to my dermatologist last saturday and I am back on antibiotics again for 6 weeks. He stated out all sorts of causes, which I think allergy is the main cause.

Crabs are so lovely yet horrible. What else can I say?

2008-11-29T23:08:00.003+08:00

I love this quote:
"People are like stained-glass windows. They sparkle and shine when the sun is out, but when the darkness sets in, their true beauty is revealed only if there is a light from within."

It reflects on people around me.

True friends are hard to come by...
True love is hard to believe...
True colours don't usually show...
What do you think?

2008-11-09T00:21:00.002+08:00

To The World
What is life if not a chance to make a difference
What are days if not different chances to live
What is time if not a season for renewal
What is renewal but another chance to give love, to the world
What are friends if not reflections of the spirit,
What is hope if not a blending of the future and the past
What are dreams if not decisions to awaken
The soul that conquers fear is the only one that lasts
Long enough, to give love to the world
It's not a question of freedom; it’s not a question of pain
It's just a matter of learning
We all must feel the loss before we know the gain
So when the demons and the dragons come to haunt you
And you're certain that the chance for peace is gone
Close your eyes and listen to the wind blow;
You'll hear His voice of love passing through, passing on
Giving love to the world

2008-09-06T23:07:00.002+08:00

feeling so sick...flu cough fever...the cough is bad..so damn shit shit shitty..I hate coughs.headache and muscleache for past two days, wrapped in jacket all the way to school and back home.

still need to finish my lab report by monday..sick now..bad semester.

big project coming up, starting on tuesday. hope I can still interact with my painful throat. 2 test before recess week. die...feeling so tired after burning a few midnight oil and then falling ill.

Nothing I can say, except DOWN DOWN DOWN. I AM FEELING SO DOWN!!! -_-"

2008-08-05T22:51:00.004+08:00

Woohoo~!
Second year life is definitely very very busy. What a riot in school on the first day! People should have seen the queues in the printing room. so OMG!! None of my business anyway, coz I cut queue. Somemore is jump at the front that kind. Haha. Sounds bad. But that's the way things work at Lee Wee Nam.

Morning bugs surrounding me. First day of school, I totally didn't hear my alarm ringing. Luckily there was no tutorial. This morning had a stomachache, right after I open my eyes. So damn irritating, I was almost late.

Right on the first day of school, I have lab and its project somemore. Project for 5 weeks, it came as a shock, definitely to me. First lectures are all crap. Lecturers talking nonsense and students chit-chatting away among themselves. Everyday is almost like 8-5 working hours for me, plus one hour lunch break, without pay, still need to pay fees. No time for lunch ytd, ate one old chang kee stick and return for lessons. So very hungry. Today was a shorter day, coz got no tutorials, had subway for lunch with friends and back home!

Tmr going to popular and find some textbooks. My year 2 subjects are so difficult, this time chiat lat le. Hope I won't fail any subjects. Wish me luck, friends!

All the best to you all too!!

Conversation btw me & my brother>>
me: kor, I bought alot of things today, but all cannot eat de.
bro: what is it?
me: notes.
bro: is it?
me: yar. very expensive.
bro: haha. good lor. won't get fat.

Elmo loves you, I love elmo:)

2008-08-03T22:40:00.002+08:00

aAAaaaaHHhhhhhhh...school's starting tmr. I didn't get the elective I want, should I try appealing? got alot of things to do tmr, get all the notes I can find at Lee Wee Nam Library. Look out for textbooks. Check out my lab schedule. Attend my first lecture of the semester. Lunch with friends. Find new friends. AH HAHA...too many things to do.

Browsed through the lecture notes. It was like OMG!!! What's happening??? All that is in the notes are like aliens to me. Don't understand a SHIT in there! Hope this semester can be a smooth journey. Maybe I would prefer some interesting things to happen than just a boring normal semester. HOHOHO!!

i love elmo, elmo loves you:)

2008-07-30T22:51:00.003+08:00

蕭閎仁-看袂落去 MV 完整版 (directed by jay chou)

看袂落去

社会上有太多奇奇怪怪的代志
有真多人不愿意面对现实
听讲算命的巷仔口有真多人在排队
但是在我看来无意义
哈啊真无稀奇(有钱就判生没钱就判死)
哈啊我看袂落去
明那仔我要赶十点的飞凌机
希望你暂时麦有代志
听听听讲我的烦恼是因为你
外面的空气总是让人快要窒息
但是在我的世界里
Oh I just want be free
(Yeah) (Oh Come on)
RAP
这咧社会三不五时就会有很多
有真多人的感觉已经变的不会讲话
你咧讲啥货我咧讲啥货大家到底是咧讲啥货
这咧是啥货那咧是啥货黑白讲话
谁都想要过了轻松有一天能出头天
（爱拜拜拜拜神明）
外面世界这开阔（这开阔）
你还不出去（你你你咧等什么）
人生明明是彩色的你却甲它渐渐变作黑白
真心的朋友找无一个
哈啊 I wanna be free
哈啊 My name is be free

Super Duper song...by this new singer..and jay actually directed his MV!! He wrote his own songs AND he is so style...especially his character, he actually rejected to join the PK competition during 星光大道2. Must support such talent.

4 more days to enjoy......

2008-07-28T23:03:00.005+08:00

My brother bought ASUS X80 series notebook today. It's only $1098. So damn cheap. Intel core 2Duo somemore...160G SATA HDD...1G + free 1G RAM = 2G RAM!!!...got webcam also. Take a look at it, not bad looking one.

OMG!! I felt so cheated that I bought my FUJITSU notebook for $2000+. mine got no webcam. feeling so damn shitty. But I got this Cooler Master for free, and my kor say its mine!! It cost almost 50bucks if one were to purchase. My next target is to change my desktop monitor to LCD screen, big big screen so can play games and better for watching movies. I shall change new keyboard and mouse tgt with the LCD screen. Hopefully, all will be black in color. Maybe I should also consider changing my PC casing to black;)
This is my notebook fan, Cooler Master:

And I did this to my face today...,

SMILEZ~~~

2008-07-28T00:12:00.002+08:00

Been having bad stomachaches for more than one week. sigh..feel like going toilets after meals causing me to hate eating. visiting the toilet two or three times a day is definitely irritating. Tonight after dinner, i had a bad bad stomach and i visited the toilet 1 hour plus later. now still having some after effects, or maybe my big business haven't finish yet. tired, but i think i need visit my toilet buddy once more before sleeping.

AaAaaaaAaaahhhhhhhhhh......help me!!!
I hate toilets!-_-"

2008-07-23T23:23:00.000+08:00

Vincent van Gogh' 3 starry night paintings:

The Starry Night

Swirling clouds filled the night sky, stars ablazed, a crescent moon. Your eyes will follow the curves, moving about the painting. Makes one feel comfortable and at ease. A small town appears below the horizon. A church larger than other buildings, lies in the centre of the town, giving the town a sense of stability. A dark shadow at the left hand side gives a sense of isolation.
I especially like the swirling clouds in the painting, I don't know why.

Starry Night Over the Rhone

Three focus in this painting. First is that each star has its own orb of light. Second, the reflection of the artificial light, feeling magnificent, gives viewers the visual effects. Thirdly are the structures amongst the warm glow of artificial lights.
I simply enjoy viewing the reflection of artificial light:)

Cafe Terrace at Night

This artworks contributes a different perspective of the starry nightsky. The yellow wall attracts much more attention. A sense of balance is attributed to the dark cityscape silhouette to the right of the painting.
What makes me wonder is whatever that lies along that dark dark street. And whether will the starry nightsky become more beautiful if the streets were darker. Haaa...:P

The song "Vincent(Starry starry night)" is actually based on Vincent's famous drawings and also tells his biography. He committed himself to an asylum where he painted 'The Starry Night'. One, two years later, he attempted suicide by shooting himself in the chest. He survived, but died two days later from the wound. Vincent viewed his life as horribly wasted, personally failed and impossible.

The story of Vincent van Gogh's tragic life, filled with mental evils and artistic triumphs, lingers almost becoming that of legend. His work is still astounding millions around the world daily, and though he sold only one painting in his life, his influence on the outcome of art has been amazing and overwhelming. His paintings have reached new records when sold for hundreds of millions of dollars, and his persona has sparked number one hit songs. Vincent van Gogh has altered mankind forever... and he believed his life was a terrible failure!

Vincent painted a few thousand paintings throughout his lifetime, almost one per day over his last few years. Cool guy~!

2008-07-23T11:06:00.008+08:00

A song based on the Vincent van Gogh's artworks...

Vincent (Starry, Starry Night)

Starry, starry night
Paint your palette blue and grey
Look out on a summer's day
With eyes that know the darkness in my soul
Shadows on the hills
Sketch the trees and daffodils
Catch the breeze and the winter chills
In colours on the snowy linen land
Now I understand
What you tried to say to me
And how you suffered for your sanity
And how you tried to set them free
They would not listen
They did not know how
Perhaps they'll listen now
Starry, starry night
Flaming flowers that brightly blaze
Swirling clouds and violet haze
Reflect in Vincent's eyes of china blue
Colours changing hue
Morning fields of amber grain
Weathered faces lined in pain
Are soothed beneath the artists' loving hand
Now I understand
What you trying to say to me
And how you suffered for your sanity
And how you tried to set them free
They would not listen
They did not know how
Perhaps they'll listen now
For they could not love you
But still your love was true
And when no hope was left inside
On that starry, starry night
You took your life as lovers often do
But I could have told you Vincent
This world was never meant for one as beautiful as you
Starry starry night
Portraits on in empty homes
Frameless heads on aimless walls
With eyes that watch the world and can't forget
Like the strangers that you've met
The ragged men in ragged clothes
A silver thorn a bloody rose
Lie crushed and broken on the virgin snow
Now I think I know
What you tried to say to me
And how you suffered for your sanity
And how you tried to set them free
They would not listen
They're not listening still
Perhaps they never will..

2008-07-19T22:38:00.003+08:00

what really worries me nowadays is when my friends fall sick. i am really afraid of that night, that moment, it was just like a dream or rather a nightmare. i am afraid history will repeat. but luckily everything was alrite.

i feel so sorry or rather bad that i missed replying agatha's sms twice. the first time was last week's 5pm tj trng, second was last night. i actually replied her today at around 12plus and asked her what time was trng. so so sorry, i juz woke up and didn't realised that it was a saturday. felt so bad after that when she didn't reply till 5plus. i hope she is not angry with me. i also wished for her to be happy and healthy.

everytime i chance upon my phone, there is no msg or missed call. once i forget to check my phone, i will have sms and miss calls coming in. and often people would think that i refuse to reply them. well, i am used to it. don't really mind it though.

for the whole of today, i juz eat, sleep and watch tv. i lie down watching tv for too long, and i felt giddy when i stood up, my head becomes very heavy, my vision became blur then black, everything returns after a while. felt like i almost fainted, lucky there was a table for me to hold onto. quite long since i had such an experience. maybe there is too much of a sleeping beauty here. but its not going to be too long before sleeping beauty wakes up and becomes cinderella. haha.

i am bored......

2008-07-18T22:55:00.004+08:00

a nice song..
衝動 MV 完整清晰版-Elva 蕭亞軒

很感激这城市拥挤的交通
让你我还能多相处几分钟
人潮中怕失散所以轻轻拉你的手
一刻不放松不放松

忍不住想要爱你的冲动
不确定你属于我会有点寂寞
你给的幸福在我心中自由走动
抚平我每一个伤口
忍不住想要吻你的冲动
不确定我的执着能让你感动
我只能相信自己感受不怕失落
关于你的一切我想要比谁都懂

我的心是被你设定的闹钟
提醒我想你的时间不够用
为什么平淡的事情现在忽然生动
是你改变我你改变我

你是情人还是朋友
还没勇气想得太多
你的世界如此辽阔
我会在哪个角落

2008-07-16T13:17:00.000+08:00

school's starting in a few weeks time...bored...:)

2008-07-01T01:49:00.002+08:00

I got into design stream...hahaha. I applied for fun and i didnt expect really can get in. Now my timetable is going to be so late. Sian..I actually planned properly and can end school early de. Haiz, now everything is messed up. Guess I have to get used to it since I am now in the design stream. Think going to have loads or even tonnes of work to do. Die le...starting to regret liao. I am going to be even busier than the bees......

2008-05-28T23:38:00.003+08:00

nice gathering with vballers today, coz all of us managed to turn up!

I can see that everyone has grown up alot. mostly attached except for me and char. think I am the last. haha. its okay. I am fine with my life being single currently. chit chat in little groups jumping into one another's conversation now and then. I had a nice chat with sharon, think I talk to her most of the time. me and her have the same hobby, that is to stay at home. haha. good hobby yah. I told her about my life and she told me hers.

then nus pple ask me to go for exchange program and stay in their hall. I will really considered that. then char ask me join hall vball, though I not staying in hall. I don't mind if I have a space to sleep overnight, cause the trainings end quite late, or unless the next day I got no lesson.

then me and sharon were the only two that never stay in hall. so quite out of conversation, but it was nice listening to their talks. everyone's doing well.haha.

qiaoyi wore singlet and fbt. haha. very funny. heard she planned to go swimming before that but it rained. lolx. last night, I asked qiaoyi how did she analysed me last time and this was what she said:
"u will keep things to urself but u will talk the things out when u want to and u plan for the future. although u look as if u dun care, slack. budden i feel that u treat each matter, or thing quite seriously."
I should say its quite true and I think she understands me more than I do. She really has the potential to be a psychologist.

Think I really need to go exercise and start my diet le. really growing fat. and I think I am the fattest among the vball gals. cannot liddat. need to start burning off my fats. I have decided to start tml. shall go running tml morning or afternoon coz I want to sleep, if it doesn't rains. I also heard from pple that sleeping can lose weight. maybe I should sleep to lose weight coz sleeping is my hobby too.

2008-05-27T02:29:00.005+08:00

sore sorethroat...

was telling char ytd that I have nth good, only a pair of good ears. I found that this is definitely true. Sometimes I really think my mouth is superglued, sealed up and refused to be opened. chat with her through the long night on msn. maybe that's my character, or maybe some things that happened cause this character build-up and I didn't even noticed.

I really think I am having frequent mood swings recently. And I don't know why. No reason. Or maybe there is, I just don't feel like admitting it. confused..

2008-05-26T00:22:00.002+08:00

i still feel tt i am better in expressing my feelings and moods in chinese...tt's why of my new blog in chinese..hmmm..

i told alot of pple that i had already let go regarding my cousin's pass away. however, i have been thinking of her on and off, not a very good feeling though. i really wonder whether am i facing reality or running away from it? or maybe becoz during tt period i was having exams so i held on to my feelings. to speak the truth, i did not realli cried out tt day though i realli feel like becoz i was afraid it will affect my exams. maybe some of the sadness is still buried deep down in my heart. think i need time to dig it out.

but i realli miss her loads...and i had one regret ever since she passed away.
i regret for not visiting her that last week.i thought i could visit her when my exams were over. but she didn't managed to wait for me. this regret is going to be with me for my lifetime.

2008-05-25T17:50:00.003+08:00

went out with 0805 pple in the afternoon, just reach home.

meet them at bugis and we went for fish&co. caught up with them. it really has been very long since i talk to them. although some from NTU, but i seldom see them in school. nice day.most of us ordered the same dish, which was the best fish and chips. i couldn't finish my fries, it was definitely a big share manz. i also had the passionfruit drink. nice eh! was telling some of them why they choose bugis as i am quite sick of going bugis. have been visiting there quite often.

on the way home, was on the train with teeyan and mervyn, chatted with them. woo~ also nth much la. today's lunch, the funniest one was zhilian, she confirm getting lamer by the days. heard from zhilian she wasn't getting along very well with her friends in uni. lucky my uni friends are very nice. hohoho.

having a bit of sore throat lately, seems to be getting worse. ate too much heaty food ba.

wed vballers meeting at bugis again. why of all place, bugis?? haha. anyway, i haven reply qiaoyi. lazy to reply ba. wonder if qy sees what i am blogging, she might be mad at me for not replying her sms. coz today peirong was asking whether did i change my phone number coz i didn't reply her that day.

maybe i having mood problems sia. feel like then i reply pple's sms, dun feel like then i ignore. lolx. one of my bad habits ba...

2008-05-25T02:18:00.003+08:00

these few days have been posting on my new blog using chinese..woa~cool ah?haha.

the address is http://www.wretch.cc/blog/luvc0930

feel free to visit it..can't bear to abandon this blog..think i will still be keeping this blog..haha.

have a nice day~!

2008-05-18T23:18:00.002+08:00

feeling sad and angry today...
feeling so unlucky...

one fine day, i am going to own a car by myself...my new aim.

2008-04-22T20:39:00.002+08:00

its now my exam period...yet...my cousin kyla, passed away peacefully on 20th april 2008, sunday...

realli miss her manz...dun think i will be doing well for my exams..this week got 4 papers...finished 2 le..left 2 more to go..

kyla was cremated today...damn sad...sad...sad...she is only 25 this year...i wonder how old i can live till..life's unexpected...if people noticed..her story is on today's xin ming wan bao...but its a very short one...her story was definitely longer than that...even when she couldnt move, she still managed to wrote her last piece of words for her family, relatives and friends through the help of her teacher...

hope she is doing well now in heaven...

miss you lotx, Kyla!

2008-03-29T22:51:00.002+08:00

I sincerely pray to God to bring my cousin to heaven earlier, the place where she long to be. A place without illness, without jealousy, without quarrels and only a place showered with peace, love and happiness by God. What a lovely place! If only where I am now is such a kind of place.

May God Bless her with such lovely moments sooner......

2008-03-20T02:40:00.002+08:00

live life to the fullest while you can...

have been visiting my dear cousin kyla. She was only 24 years old when she was diagnosed with a third stage rare tissue cancer, pecoma, in july07. She underwent a 6 hours major op to remove her womb , part of large intestine, lymph nodes that had cancer cells around it and also some around her veins on the left leg. After the op, she had a stoma (an opening which allows the removal of feces bypassing the rectum) done at the iluem.

Her mum couldn't take the stress and was in a state of depression, taking sleeping pills almost everyday. Kyla however was strong and determined to fight against the cancer cells. She told her mum,"you've to go back home and rest well if not you'll not be able to look afer me when i need you.". These words were indeed very touching. Everyone was happy seeing her determination to live on. Her father had to deal with her situation and also his wife's depression causing him to breakdown a few times.

After undergoing 4 months of chemo, the doctor gave her a MRI scan. The result was that her cancer cells were actually spreading. Some growing on the kidneys, ureter, bladder, around her veins. The biggest was actually 7.7cm by 6.2cm. She herself felt sad and she cried. But her determination was still there. She had to take morphine pills 3 times daily which was a small dosage as compared to now. She started to believe people's experiences and started consuming different prescription and even took chinese medicine. Basically, she tried almost everything and everyway there was. from Chinese medicine to beetroot to lemongrass to mangosteen to chanting buddha scripts to..... Her weight dropped to 30+kg. She had backaches everyday and was unable to be in one position for long.

During my recess week, I visited her. but the next week, she was lying in hospital. Injection of a stronger painkiller than morphine, blood test, scans, drips...her cancer cells actually grew to almost 30cm which the doctor describe that it was as big as a football. Her parents were very sad. now and then, tears could be seen welling up in their eyes, sighing and yawning. They visit her every morning at 6.30am till 10pm at night. her father's big belly had actually flatten and disappeared. She had very bad backaches increasing the baseline of painkiller everyday and asking for a perch(additional dosage of painkiller on top of baseline requirement) from 2 times a day to once every 2hours. Her stomach was bloated and her legs swollen due to the removal of lymph nodes. However she was still eating well and smiling now and then. Her ureter was block due to the enlarged tumor, she had tubes diectly connected to her kidneys to drain out the excessive fluids. After another few days, the doctors had metal tubes inserted into her ureter to assist her to drain out fluids into the bladder. but one of her kidneys was found to be disfunctioning. She was able to released by herself after that.

all these was not for long...a few days later, she couldnt take the pain much more and she became frustrated. I visited her today and the baseline for her painkiller is at the max already. this time it was her urethra that was block by the tumor and her released of fluids was not to the expected level. so a tube was inserted into the bladder through urethra. Her was half-concious due to the large dosage of painkillers. she was even dozing off while having dinner. Her elder sister was beside her all the time. puffy eyes and wasnt looking good as well. doctors said that she needs a spinal anesthesia because she had reached the max dosage of painkiller allowed.

I felt so sad when i look at her. happy memories filled me. the times when we played tgt and how she dote on me. how she tied my hair for me, her cheerful looks long ago, dinners tgt, midnight soyabean before the major op, potato chips and tv....many many more...tears well up my eyes many times but they didnt dripped down in front of her..the more her smiles, the worse we feel...and now she is half-concious..eating with the slightest energy she has.

I hope her sufferings can end sooner but i can bear to see her leave...oh man...i am so confused...:"(

I have lessons tmr. but i cant get to sleep.:"(

2007-07-05T00:08:00.000+08:00

ntu trng cancelled today coz too little pple.haha.lucky sia.i feeling so lazy today...in fact is everyday.think i need to exercise and go on diet le.wahaha.

i am so damn sad lah.my computer harddisk collapsed.should have changed it earlier.shit it man.not only my C drive files gone, my D drive files is in danger.think very hard to retrieve le.damn la.got so many things dere.my mp3, my photos...and alot more.sianx.need go sim lim one day and search for a larger space harddisk.haha.but need money.not alot, think around 50 bucks.so suay manx.now using my brother's computer.damn damn damn.if D drive cannot get back i really gonna cry lo.haix :"(

tj duno trng when and wad time de.haiyo.very mah fan.muz ask juniors.shall see tml.think tml have but duno wad time.sigh~

2007-06-25T00:00:00.000+08:00

One touching story...

...dun forget to give your love ones a hug today!

2007-06-23T22:16:00.000+08:00

slacking at home everyday..
taking a *peep* at my hamsters..i saw spidermEn.

this one is abit blur...

looking nearer at those hanging objects... and this is the nearest...aha!
my baby hamstee.

comparing the size....cool eh..the small one looks so mini..

from 2 hamsters to 4 and now to 10...forever multiplying figure...

i think my mama^hamster is pregnant again...goin to give birth in another week or so...wahaha.

2007-06-23T18:01:00.000+08:00

some day this week....

Visited The Animal Resort at jalan kayu...some interesting birds..

looks like peacock...but not sure wad it is. this is definitely a swan..a black one?!

this is the most disgusting creature there. looks like a bald head old man.

joke of the day>> this creature looks like fukuan in CSS2

i guess this is a goose...

besides birds..we saw puppies on sale, rabbits and newly born baby rabbits with no hair, guinea pigs, rats...oso got chickens...haha..fun day!!

2007-05-24T23:13:00.000+08:00

I bought this ticket......and I was just 55 tickets away from S$10k... My little hamster babies...8 babies this time but 1 died...

I watched pirates of the caribbean on wednesday night..nice movie..highly recommended..Captain jack sparrow was never never hilarious..I laughed till I fall back on my seat..woot~ wahaha..

I am injured..below my left eye got one red mark and my nose kena blue black also..I was in a fight?!..no no..I hit myself accidentally while playing with a stick..results of being playful..hmmm..lucky today the marks disappeared except my nose still blue black..muhehe..

2007-05-07T22:45:00.000+08:00

Hey peeps, I am back!

So sorry for not replying qiaoyi’s msges and aga’s oso. Its just that my phone wasn’t with me. I was away. Not so soon but hopefully next next dinner I can join in.heh heh:P

Sunday’s Queensway trip I didn’t manage to go too coz I really wasn’t feeling well. Sick, you know? On the way of recovering. But I did went Queensway the week before and bought a pair of converse shoes at 40% staff discount. Save me a lot. Anyone want anything from converse, everlast and another brand I forgot, can tell me the item serial number. I can get discount for you guys.

AND…life is so boring. When you have work, you don’t feel like working. When you have nothing to do, you feel like working. My work is ending this week. Gonna be jobless again.

Gtg rest le. Shall blog another time. Byebye. smilex:)

2007-04-09T00:53:00.000+08:00

Long time since i blog. Its time i revived it. Juz feel like blogging tonite. I dunno why. Dun ask me why. Sometimes i juz hate it when pple ask me why.

Sometimes its not because i dun wan to explain, its juz that pple dun understand coz they have never been through wad i have been through these few years and till now it hasn't end. pple who are the closest to you are actually the ones that hurt you the most. I am not refering to my the other half. Its pple who have known you since you were born.

Sometimes i think of ways to get out of it, but that isn't important. Running away from reality doesn't solve the problem totally. Tml have to work again. loads of documents waiting for me to settle. sianz. Today juz not in the right mood. illness and got pissed off by pple who are in the wrong and never admits it.

`I am lost without You`

2007-02-04T12:56:00.000+08:00

The first time in my life I did teaching...taught chinese...the student's standard were like so shitty...it was this primary school and the kids love to run around...somemore in the class...den i have some kids who will come up to me and complain that who scold bad word and later complain again that who point middle finger as if its a very bad thing to do. well....its quite normal for us but it looks like something that will cause them to get punished.I juz told the student not to learn the bad things...i dun think i want to punish them..haha..I am still jobless anyway...hmmmm...waiting for agency to help me find in the meanwhile do some relief teaching...its $65 per day which I taught for 9 periods which is 4.5hours only...so one hour is $10++...so shuang...the school juz behind my house only, can save transport fee oso...I left house and reached at 7.30am den i can go home at around 1pm...wad a happy day...hope more teachers from the school sick den i can teach and earn more...wahahaha...very evil thought of mine....

I was so bored at home so i decided to test my own IQ:

The result wasn't that bad....i think i quite clever siax...juz no luck especially when its comes to job hunting...maybe i am fated to be a taitai...hohoho :D

2006-11-17T23:45:00.000+08:00

I was god damn pissed off right after chem paper today and it happened right in the school canteen...spoiled my mood for the rest of the day!!!!!

some pple who are juz born to be failures tend to blame it on others.what's more is that they appear to be gentlemanly on the outside but on the inside, its juz directly the opposite. I swear such pple should juz go and bang their heads on the wall and die if they can't accept failure and have to blame others. what crap to spoil my day juz like that!!!

2006-11-17T23:30:00.000+08:00

A' levels is over for me. Its gonna be history and precious memories in my JC life shall stay forever. To browse through my studying process....

It all started with this unavailable square table in my bedroom......top left hand corner is Physics, top right hand corner is GP, bottom left hand corner are the pass year papers, bottom right hand corner is Chemistry, at the centre is Maths....the rest are just the overflowing of the notes and some undone hmwk before prelims.....I took quite sometime before prelims to decide which corner to put which subject coz I was afraid the table would topple over...and then right at the front is a photo with my PW group members.....

In order to understand food chemistry, I cooked dinner thrice before A's....... the 1st dinner... 2nd dinner...didn't take photo of the third coz it was a big black pot of chicken with carrots and potato and a plate of cabbage....I cooked them by myself..surprised???...I actually know how to cook...hmmm... Next is to understand Physics, and how terminal velocity is achieved...I was so bored that I decided to find a new studying spot at home...and it was this kitchen table above..I was lying on it studying and I fell asleep. On waking up, I couldn't remember where I was and I turned my body ending up experiencing projectile motion and then flat on the floor. Ouch...pain one k? Actually it wasn't the first time, last year during promos I fell once from this table already....Ehem~ -_-"

And to learn Maths....I drew all types of diagrams to understand it...below is my nickname...heh~heh.

Vectors which I still don't understand till now...but who cares...its over:P Stats....that's an irony....remember: never believe what I say... And last but not least of coz...maths makes me mad..in other words crazy....too much crap in my Maths notes...therefore I am not giving it to any juniors...and I don't think anyone wants them too... Finally...after studying for 18-3=15 years (coz I started kindergarten at 4), I am spared!!!!!

Liberty+Equality=Fraternity

2006-10-20T20:06:00.000+08:00

you do not need to be a good writer in order to read and understand a story,
neither do you need to know how to draw to be able to appreciate a painting...
and of course you do not need to be loved to fall in love.

2006-10-09T00:10:00.000+08:00

Spooky it says...the drink wasn't spooky at all....but the nite was with all the haze around me... my mid-autumn festival nite at one of my favourite hangout spot was fun...burn 12 lanterns at the end of it....shall see the 'burnt lanterns' pictures next time...hohoho...:P

2006-10-08T21:27:00.000+08:00

My 18th birthday presents....all so lovely....:)

A birthday card from my brother&girlfriend these are the messages from my dear vballers...guess who wrote which one?? these are from agatha...a shirt, memo holder cum paper weight and titbits... this is from char&cher...it is now beautifully on display in my kitchen... some other things from char&cher...penguin that comes with the above water dispenser, cute slippers with a monster face that I assume it looks like me coz its cute and char's fav brand, KAPPA socks...haha. This is from captain Isabella...she actually chose a husky unknowningly and I love that dog..a moo~moo~ mini slipper hanging on my bag now..nail polish which i have decided to use the purple one first and of coz this cute little baby keychain which I shall make it Fangy's brand coz its all over my papers and books for these 2 years of college life... AHha....this is from qiaoyi aka octopussie...shall use this bag soon...can't wait to free myself from the exams and enjoy...maybe I shall bring it to school this week??... this doggy is from sharon aka siti...the biscuits which I have finished and the monster sweets that turn my mouth upside down with different colours... ohhhh....and this is from my poor yenling who was sick on my birthday...didn't get to treat her...shall bring her to lunch one day...I simply love the figurines on the calender..shall use it to count down my days to exam..and of coz this hippo with such cute skirt that keeps reminding me that I am 18 this year.. This is my sweet little baby bed and the baby is of coz me...this package and card appeared on my "kiddo" bed on 1st October...I tot it was children's day present only to realise that I am 18 already when I open the card... coz there was this BIG BIG 18 on the card....and the wierdest dog I have ever seen with such a huge head and a tiny body....

Haha...that's the end of my presents....wonderful, lovely, memorable....how I wish I can stay at 18 forever...

2006-10-02T21:54:00.000+08:00

My Birthday with my Family I was toying with my cake....can you see that bowl of noodles?? That noodles was sweet, it was prepared my my mother... Smiling from ear to ear...that was wad they say... Close view at my yummy birthday cake... Cake with candles???...It rounded up to 18.. Cake with lighted candles!!! They sang Birthday song and treated me like an alien.... Me blowing out the candles and only my dog didn't treat me like an alien...Actually, it was eyeing my yummy birthday cake... My brother bullied me...the cake had my saliva... My slice of cake!! Huge, isn't it???

And I was treated to the International Buffet at TM on Sunday..Gaining weight siax..Haha...that's all folks...shall update my presents next time....

Seriously, my room is in a big mess...Presents on the floor and my table is full of notes which I am not going to bother to pack until A's is over and I shall dump them away!!:)

I failed my GP once again..Haa...expected...

2006-10-02T21:28:00.000+08:00

My Birthday Outing with the VballersLooking at the giraffes in above, it is understood that we went Giraffe to eat. I don't really know where's that place except that it is opposite PS :) Hmmm...they look so satisfied after ordering their food coz the menu was so limited..haha. While waiting for the food, the presents were opened...I love the presents alot!!:P That's me with my dinner(Laksa something something, 4got the name)... After dinner, we took a group photo...hehex.. We went TCC after dinner, and that's my Birthday Slice!!Yummy one! My Wish...cannot say...sHHhhhh... Let's have a nearer look at the yummy slice again..

We chat at the TCC for a few hours...some nice secrets and some not very nice secrets to be told...bad bad...they bully me...

My wonderful Birthday with my dear dear girls....Are you jealous??? LOLX~~

2006-09-27T23:04:00.000+08:00

This is my first birthday present this year. It was from my classmate Linda. Indeed, a very early birthday present because I received it during the study break, it was received on 29/8/06, one month earlier. It was some GP notes and markers' report...a very heartwarming birthday present, like it alot anyways.Thanks Linda!! I dun think she reads my blog anyway. Haha..:)

I got back all my results except for GP. It was like shit. I did so badly. All the marks are like half half one. Now, I hope that I can pass my GP. However, I most probably would have failed badly already. Therefore, this is called fat hope.-=>notice the GP essay structure?!? 0_o"

2006-09-23T23:20:00.000+08:00

我要一架大大的飞机

What kind of plane suits me...

a cartoon plane...

fighter plane... air bomber... F-16... or a passenger plane???

I was teasing Isabella about wanting a big big aeroplane and she ask me why...nth to reply...so I said duno...haha..actually I wanted a plane for......hmmm...cannot tell...haha 0_o"

2006-09-16T01:32:00.000+08:00

Hey, friends out dere...

before you sleep...listen to this story first....

The Room

17-year-old Brian Moore had only a short time to write something for a class. The subject was what Heaven was like.

"I wowed 'em," he later told his father, Bruce. "It's a killer. It's the bomb. It's the best thing I ever wrote.."

It also was the last. Brian's parents had forgotten about the essay when a cousin found it while cleaning out the teenager's locker at Teary Valley High School Brian had been dead only hours, but his parents desperately wanted every piece of his life near them-notes from classmates and teachers, his homework.

Only two months before, he had handwritten the essay about encountering Jesus in a file room full of cards detailing every moment of the teen's life. But it was only after Brian's death that Beth and Bruce Moore realized that their son had described his view of heaven.

"It makes such an impact that people want to share it. You feel like you are there." Mr. Moore said. Brian Moore died May 27, 1997, the day after Memorial Day. He was driving home from a friend's house when his car went off Bulen-Pierce Road in Pickaway County and struck a utility pole. He emerged from the wreck unharmed but stepped on a downed power line and was electrocuted. The Moores framed a copy of Brian's essay and hung it among the family portraits in the living room. "I think God used him to make a point. I think we were meant to find it and make something out of," Mrs. Moore said of the essay. She and her husband want to share their son's vision of life after death. "I'm happy for Brian. I know he's in heaven. I know I'll see him."

Brian's Essay: The Room...

In that place between wakefulness and dreams, I found myself in the room. There were no distinguishing features except for the one wall covered with small index card files. They were like the ones in libraries that list titles by author or subject in alphabetical order. But these files, which stretched from floor to ceiling and seemingly endless in either direction, had very different headings. As I drew near the wall of files, the first to catch my attention was one that read "Girls I have liked." I opened it and began flipping through the cards. I quickly shut it, shocked to realize that I recognized the names written on each one.

And then without being told, I knew exactly where I was. This lifeless room with its small files was a crude catalog system for my life. Here were written the actions of my every moment, big and small, in a detail my memory couldn't match. A sense of wonder and curiosity, coupled with horror, stirred within me as I began randomly opening files and exploring their content. Some brought joy and sweet memories; others a sense of shame and regret so intense that I would look over my shoulder to see if anyone was watching.

A file named "Friends" was next to one marked "Friends I have betrayed." The titles ranged from the mundane to the outright weird "Books I Have Read," "Lies I Have Told," "Comfort I have Given," "Jokes I Have Laughed at." Some were almost hilarious in their exactness: "Things I've yelled at my brothers." Others I couldn't laugh at: "Things I Have Done in My Anger", "Things I Have Muttered Under My Breath at My Parents."

I never ceased to be surprised by the contents.Often there were many more cards than I expected. Sometimes fewer than I hoped. I was overwhelmed by the sheer volume of the life I had lived. Could it be possible that I had the time in my years to fill each of these thousands or even millions of cards? But each card confirmed this truth. Each was written in my own handwriting. Each signed with my signature.When I pulled out the file marked "TV Shows I have watched", I realized the files grew to contain their contents The cards were packed tightly, and yet after two or three yards, I hadn't found the end of the file. I shut it,shamed, not so much by the quality of shows but more by the vast time I knew that file represented. When I came to a file marked "Lustful Thoughts," I felt a chill run through my body. I pulled the file out only an inch, not willing to test its size and drew out a card. I shuddered at its detailed content.I felt sick to think that such a moment had been recorded.

An almost animal rage broke on me. One thought dominated my mind: No one must ever see these cards! No one must ever see this room! I have to destroy them!" In insane frenzy I yanked the file out. Its size didn't matter now. I had to empty it and burn the cards. But as I took it at one end and began pounding it on the floor, I could not dislodge a single card. I became desperate and pulled out a card, only to find it as strong as steel when I tried to tear it.Defeated and utterly helpless, I returned the file to its slot. Leaning my forehead against the wall, I let out a long, self-pitying sigh.

And then I saw it.. The title bore "People I Have Shared the Gospel With." The handle was brighter than those around it, newer, almost unused. I pulled on its handle and a small box not more than three inches long fell into my hands. I could count the cards it contained on one hand.And then the tears came. I began to weep. Sobs so deep that they hurt. They started in my stomach and shook through me. I fell on my knees and cried. I cried out of shame, from the overwhelming shame of it all.

The rows of file shelves swirled in my tear-filled eyes. No one must ever, ever know of this room. I must lock it up and hide the key. But then as I pushed away the tears, I saw Him.No, please not Him. Not here. Oh, anyone but Jesus. I watched helplessly as He began to open the files and read the cards. I couldn't bear to watch His response. And in the moments I could bring myself to look at His face, I saw a sorrow deeper than my own.He seemed to intuitively go to the worst boxes. Why did He have to read every one? Finally He turned and looked at me from across the room. He looked at me with pity in His eyes. But this was a pity that didn't anger me. I dropped my head, covered my face with my hands and began to cry again. He walked over and put His arm around me. He could have said so many things. But He didn't say a word. He just cried with me.

Then He got up and walked back to the wall of files. Starting at one end of the room, He took out a file and, one by one, began to sign His name over mine on each card. "No!" I shouted rushing to Him. All I could find to say was "No, no," as I pulled the card from Him. His name shouldn't be on these cards. But there it was, written in red so rich, so dark, so alive. The name of Jesus covered mine. It was written with His blood. He gently took the card back. He smiled a sad smile and began to sign the cards. I don't think I'll ever understand how He did it so quickly, but the next instant it seemed I heard Him close the last file and walk back to my side.He placed His hand on my shoulder and said, "It is finished." I stood up, and He led me out of the room. There was no lock on its door. There were still cards to be written.

"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me."-Philippians 4:13

"For God so loved the world that He gave His only son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life." John 3: 16

Good nite, dear friends and especially vballers.....good luck for the prelims!!! Hang on, and Jiayou!! It will be over soon...

2006-09-09T00:14:00.000+08:00

5..... 4.... 3... 2.. 1.

I was too bored while studying...

'No Play No Gain' by Fangy, 8/9/06

And now...I am back to studying...

I am so tired...

dead finally...R.I.P....

Everybody, Happy Studying~!!

2006-09-02T23:27:00.000+08:00

Isn't this sweet?? How I wish I can be the baby girl.....that's the birthday present I want...*_*

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY to ISABELLA !!!!!!!

2006-08-31T18:48:00.000+08:00

While chatting.........................................,

this hilarious conversation between Tad218 and SpongeBob pop up>>>>

Tad218: people with spongebob avatars are normally gay men
SpongeBob: you know lots of them i guess!?
Tad218: nah its just pretty easy to assume...dont take it to serious. im just givin ya shit
SpongeBob: dont give me your shit when i learn english TAD for TADPOLE is men sperm
Tad218: the tad in tadpole means sperm heh?
SpongeBob: i liked you tad you will go far
Tad218: Sponge: A small absorbent contraceptive pad that contains a spermicide and is placed against the cervix of the uterus before sexual intercourse.looks like you get a little sperm yourself
Spectator: ...idiots
Tad218: lol...i know. oooooooooooooh well

Comical.... :D

2006-08-10T20:37:00.000+08:00

world war III starting at home. just a spark will do. anyway, I am the innocent victim.

so national day 2006 doesn't sound nice to me at all. the national stadium will be demolished and I dun have the ticket to go and watch this historical moment live. what's worse?? I have to watch it on TV with cold war surrounding me. A nagging old hag is one that will irritate you till you feel like pulling out your own hair and plucking all her teeth out so that she cannot speak properly and will stop nagging. what the hell is this man......

things tt occupied my mind when i go to school and fears that i have having to return home...what to do??life sux once again...its good that i have gp remedial from 2.40 to 3.35 tml...first time i like gp remedial...:)

2006-08-02T22:01:00.000+08:00

finally, I remembered to show my mother my result slip. hmmm..no comments and if there were any..well..neva decide what I would do just yet. Actually, I expected such bad results from the start..so its okay, I guess.

good achievement for these two weeks..I did my hmwk, I studied, I wasn't late for school..though sometimes in time..for a few times I was almost late, lucky there was someone there to urge me to walk faster or even run to school..I wondered why but I do feel blessed these two weeks...:)

And the days without exercise, I am feeling so fat...shall go on a diet to kill my fats..tml's napfa test..I cant jump, I cant reach, I dun have the confidence....sobx

2006-06-30T22:10:00.000+08:00

JCT's over, finally. I studied but I cant seem to answer the questions. It was a disaster, I blank out totally. No more hope. I am going to fail at least 2 papers. Wad to do?? haix...I really did study. But I guess my mind is just not there though my eyes are staring at the notes. Always drifting to my own dreamland where there is peace and no quarrels btw family members and there is love and care and concern and most importantly a world without gamblers, a place where people dun talk about money. I think I am going crazy. I am being a loner, isolation from people, and drinking is just a joy to me.

I have been sleeping at 5,6 am these few days. Should I say I am busy playing and studying or am I suffering from insomnia. Different dreams every day, different thoughts every month, different age every year. Things are changing every second. I need sleeping pills or any drug that cause drowsiness will do. :-/

~Its really difficult to fake a smile sometimes, it just makes things worse.~

`That's what my life is about>>fake emotions.`

2006-06-16T01:25:00.000+08:00

I am so tired...tired of everything. My head feels so heavy and my brain is saturated...

The only times I can forget about myself is when I am in court......I miss volleyball...miss my teammates lotx......

2006-06-14T23:34:00.000+08:00

What do humans live for? Sometimes I really wonder...

You tell me that you don't wish to carry on living, I also want to tell you that I wish to die. And not just die but to die in front of you. You want me to study well for my future yet you are the one that make me fail my studies, I can't focus well with so much worries. Sometimes I really feel like giving up totally, yet i kept myself going.

One day if I have the courage to tell you that I want to commit suicide, you would have found me lying in a pool of blood telling you I can't make it anymore.

These thoughts have come across me more than 10 times this year. It has been getting worse these two years. I really wonder if I am able to hold on longer.

I FEEL SO PISSED OFF.....really feel like dying sometimes..... :"(

2006-05-19T23:25:00.000+08:00

You scored as Engineering. You should be an Engineering major!

Engineering

92%

Mathematics

83%

Chemistry

75%

Philosophy

75%

Psychology

67%

Biology

67%

Dance

58%

Anthropology

58%

Art

50%

Sociology

50%

Theater

50%

Journalism

33%

Linguistics

33%

English

25%

What is your Perfect Major? (PLEASE RATE ME!!<3) created with QuizFarm.com

This is definitely true!!! I want to study engineering....hohoho...and i hate english to the core...:P

2006-05-11T00:09:00.000+08:00

National Inter-School 'A' Division Volleyball Championships 2006.

First round:
Tjc was up against Rjc, Vjc and Yjc...Tj won all 2-0. sMilex:)
Quarters:
Tjc vs HCi...Tj lost 0-2. its alrite...we shall win the next 2...
Tjc vs Pjc...Tj won 2-0. yEa~we can do it...strong team indeed..chEErx:P
Tjc vs NYjc...Tj lost 1-2. wad a close fight...sad:(

wEll~many say it was luck, but some say its not. All i can say is that all the teams that got into quarters were of the same standard, and therefore i believe luck matters. There is no such thing that one team is alot more better than another. Juz like Ajc, their skills are good as seen in the match where they play against HCi. However, they got kick out in the quarters and now HCi is in the finals. Get it?!? This shows that LUCK matters. Since now Tj gals team is out, i can onli say that we were unlucky. Or maybe the other teams' luck is better than our as we did perform well on that CRUCIAL day.

After the match ended on Friday, the team sat at the same place we sat last year. I cant believe i was still smiling at that moment when yenling and some others were crying. I felt that we played well. After 10-15 minutes, when i reflect back the happenings of the match, regrets filled me. If only i did not spike into the net, if only i did not spike out, if only i was less blur...many if only-s. I can feel tears welling up, i held back, swallowed them back deep into my heart. I told myself "I musnt cry now, once it starts flowing, there is no end to it." We went for dinner at fish&co and watch M:i:III. All the while, any talks about the competition, my tears reformed again and was swallowed back again and again.

Sat(6th May) Moody for the whole day. Watch the elections and fell asleep on my bed without bathing. I wasnt in the mood for a shower. Woke up the next morning at 6am for a shower. Read my teammates' blog. I let out my tears finally, in the silence of the morning.

Sun(7th May)..its so bored to stay at home. The thought of training on last Sunday came back to me. We were so happy then. I couldnt concentrate on studying for Physics test. Stoning in front of the Tv for the whole day until evening when i chat with isabella online, i cried again uncontrollably in front of my computer. At night, i went to sleep but flashbacks of the last game keep coming back. Finally, I switch on the lights and decided to study for Physics test. Reading through the notes, i cant help thinking about vball trainings and all the fun we had for the past 1.5 years. Think i fell asleep at 3 plus and woke up at 5 with all my physics notes crushed on my bed. Tired....

Mon(8th May) Failed my Physics test as expected.. Tears welled up at my eyes a few times unknowingly during lectures and tutorials. The time was crawling. I wasnt in the mood for chem remedial after school, so i juz walk past in front of my chem teacher and out of the classroom without a word to him. I slept all the way home. Reached home, dinner and night came. I packed my bag and suddenly i feel so empty. Looking at my bag which was usually filled with jersey, training-tees and towels, sadness filled me. I glanced at my phone, remembering the night before the last match when i received about 7-8 encouragement messages from my dear teammates. Regrets, regrets and more regrets. It could have been the same scenario if we won the last match. I questioned myself "Was it luck?? Or was it becoz of that few points that i missed??" I teared again.

I miss trainings, miss the hall, miss playing with my teammates, miss the aircon in the hall, miss the GT fan, miss teasing Mr fung, miss bullying my teammates especially yenling and my pet 'agamon', miss disturbing isa the 'chao ta mian bao' captain, miss my 'char pok' on court, miss the shoutings of encouragement in court, miss the steady ace ace ace, miss my backaches and elbow pains, in fact missing alot more things.....I wonder when is the next time i will be playing a vball match again. I think i will not continue playing vball anymore, i need time to recover from my back injury which i wonder will it ever get well, and i doubt so..

From wad Agatha say: "to get over this loss, to adjust to this, it'll take time". I believe i really need time to get over with this.

anyway, HCi vball team is now my 'ou xiang' team...especially player no. 8 and no. 3, i admire them alot...woah...hope they can get champions..i shall wish them Good Luck in the finals. Not forgetting Tjc Guys team oso, a strong team indeed, they are in the finals!!! Love to watch them play matches, they have such strong determination and power and good communication skills...admire them too..wahaha...

REMEMBER 17th MAY (Toa Payoh Sports Hall),
HCI vs NYJC (girls)
TJC vs AJC (boys)
a MUZ watch match......g0 TJ g0...JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU!!!!

2006-03-31T23:04:00.000+08:00

i have school, lessons, trainings and trainings. i feel so tired having to wake up at 5 every morning and reached home at 5 plus 6. that's not enough i still have hmwk and having to revised. and i end up not doing my hmwk. Well~when there are some gain, there are some losses:)

i am lost in physics and chem. cannot catch up with the work. chem tutorials are like copying answers that i dun understand at all. today's physic tutorial is worse. that agitated Mr Neo is like speaking alien language in front of me. Wad abt analogue electronics?? Wads so great abt the op-amp?????? i dun understand a thing abt it. It juz connects to a triangular thing and the electricity doesnt flow out from anywhere. How in the hell am i suppose to understand an electronics when i am not one?? This is so ridiculous!! almost broke down during his lesson.

We got the vball groupings today. We are up against VjC, RjC and YjC. heh heh. Yishun jc. so near my home. fung, isa and char came back after drawing lots, with such bad acting skills that only my dear agamon will believe. today's training is so pathetic. We started at 3 and ended at 5. haha. me and qiao set up everything before they came. We both are so great. lolx.

i need more focus. not only for studies but more importantly now is vball. Nationals starting on 17th April. I cannot really concentrate during trainings nowadays, playing so badly. feeling so stress~

cHeeRx! ;)

2006-03-03T01:40:00.000+08:00

its about 1.40am in the morning and i have to wake up at 5am and i juz dun know wad i am doing online at this hour..cant get to sleep..thiss week's happenings...besides the normal sch hours..i had dinner with my family on monday...tuesday ran to ecp with x-country pple...wednesday watch badminton's training and den my own training...today went for boy's training to watch them play friendly and i ran 2.4km with chenyi..woot*..quite a boring week..tml is half day which suits no purpose coz my lessons end at 12.15 and i have training from 12.30 to 4.30..thinking of wad i can do after training..think saturday i watching final destination...cannot confirm yet...think i quite long neva watch movie le..trying to find pple to watch with me..

so long neva blog..well...not much big happenings except abt running...got 3rd for dualathon and 7th for road run which i was damn pissed off with myself...shouldnt have slack at the last sec..can u believe tt i was juz 3sec away from the 6th positioin and my $60 asic voucher..but nvm..its over le..next big thing would be nationals competition and of coz if time does not clash..i might be considering x-country..sianx...

i am starting to feel tt i am lack of time..neva study properly and i have not been doing hmwk..starting to feel the stress ba..sorry pple if i lose control of my temper...i am learning how to cope...haha:)

and tt is oso the reason why some things shouldnt start at this time..relac...still a long way to go...actually i started planing for after my a's le..think i will be working right after a's...but before that..i muz visit MOS and of coz not forgetting Zouk...maybe i will visit on my birthday...who noes?...now very mah fan...if go hafta borrow ic...and i bet my mum's gonna scream at me...haha:P

it 2am now..gtg rest le...i will try my best to sleep...if not tml will be horrible...i might juz faint during training...nitex~

2006-01-29T17:44:00.000+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year pple!!!

last nite dinner was roast duck, chicken and pork. so fattening...needa exercise more after cny..watch tv at home after dinner...boring life..heex..den smsing...changed to chatting online at abt 1 plus...kaox..within 5 minutes i fell asleep in front of my com againx..swear man tt i will neva chat online again..

my brother return from army todae...had our second round of steamboat..was damn full..and now the prawns are still swimming in my stomach...opened two cans of abalone todae..haha..so nice..now slacking at home..shld be doing visiting tml..hohoho...happy new year~~~~

To love is to suffer. To avoid suffering one must not love. But then one suffers from not loving. Therefore to love is to suffer, not to love is to suffer. To suffer is to suffer. To be happy is to love. To be happy then is to suffer. But suffering makes one unhappy. Therefore, to be unhappy one must love, or love to suffer, or suffer from too much happiness. i dont think u get wad i am saying:P

2006-01-28T11:25:00.000+08:00

thursday was cny carnival...had my hair twisted and sprayed red..jack and jaryl actually called me da jie...haha..so funny...aniwae my class sold candy floss...not sure about any profits..went back early for reunion dinner..hmmm..ate prawns, abalone, fishballs, crabsticks...alot of food sia..

ytd had training in the afternoon den dinner at fung's house..order pizza..the chicken wing was so nice..love it man..stuff alot of othe cny cookies into my stomach oso...got these two little kids...so cute..haha..the little boy actually fried noodles using my hair...den isabella was worse...the girl put hairclips all over her hair..haha..we went home at ten..v tired...

to agatha...cheerx yea...it is good sometimes to have pple scolding u...at least they do show care and concern for u..precious it gal...last time i oso dun like my mother scolding me all the time...but now i want someone to scold me when i get home oso dun have...coz most of the time there is not a soul in sight:)

Anyway, Happy Chinese New Year Eve everybody!!!:P

2006-01-15T23:59:00.000+08:00

happy??sad??depressed???down???up??right, left???i am juz confused.....wad shld i do???or shld i wait for things to get better...do miracles happen??maybe they do:)...haix...

one word: FRUSTRATED!!

2005-12-29T11:35:00.000+08:00

hurt my back...went to see doctor on tuesday..injection..it was okay at first..den later very suan.leg very hard to lift up to walk.rested at home.ytd better le.onli one side pain at times..hope today will be a better day..heex...

anyway have to rest for 2 weeks to be exact..good...means when sch reopen i can skip pe...hahaha..but quite low coz sat's friendly match against NUS cannot play..i long wanted to play this match le..hmmm...nvm ba..pray that everything will be alrite after 2 weeks..if not..i oso not sure wads gg to happen next.

cHeerZ:)

2005-12-27T00:56:00.000+08:00

woahh~~...holiday will soon be over..had lots of fun.vball chalet, vball camp, cball christmas countdown nite...hmmm..i went out mostly with my vball mates ba..feel that our team is very united.we muz jiayou for the competition...sure can make it de..

to be exact, i am left with one week...struggling with my hmwk coz i onli did 30 chem mcqs..help...i dun have maths tys..i haven touch physics..oh no..well..anyway this holiday i had fun till i realli feel like leaving school for good..hehx..

a question appear and i rejected it....this time it appear again...i feel guilty to reject it again...so i left it hanging dere...i juz want to concentrate on my studies first...anyway if u think u can win my heart, go ahead....coz i onli treat u as my friend and nth else...lastly, i juz wan to say tt i realli hate tt question:)

2005-11-23T16:04:00.000+08:00

monday had trng in the afternoon den i had ban mian for dinner...yummy...so long neva eat le...haha.hmm..tuesday trng again den lunch out with friend..filled my stomach with sushi and fish bee hoon..walk around..wanted to go causeway point de..neva go in the end so wen home to bath.too full for dinner..but ate some rojak and shared a cup of soya bean milk with *baolim*..actly is i wan drink de.but cannot finish..let her drink more milk den can become bigger...hahaha...

fungus is crazy...trng ask us to do stupid exercises..how am i supposed to do sit up on the hard floor...pain one lehx...kaox...

anyway bought ps2...shared with my brother...$395..i fork out $150..quite x..but worth it...bought a new pair of volleyball shoes too...$50..love it alot..friday going to watch harry potter with yenling and some others..cant wait to watch it:P

its not that i dun wan to go but i am scared...i scared i cannot continue with wad i love doing now...

2005-11-17T05:15:00.000+08:00

i noe its 5plus in the morning alreadi. but i still haven go to bed. shall go to bed soon.very pissed off by the maplestory server. cant get in for the whole day till now still cannot. lousy server. read some blogs juz now. char sounds so funny. mrs chua happy den miss chua happy. miss chua ahx.....funny woman. heex. its raining now, heavy rain sia. morning le. but i feel like playing games now. maybe i shall not sleep. hmmmm....see first ba:)

shall update wad i did the past few daes..hmmm..last mondae fever...fridae diarrhoea...but i still went sentosa with my family..it was my father's burfdae.cycle dere till butt pain..den drown my dog in the sea but it survived.we had a feast for dinner.woa..ate alot.

saturdae..morning went for pw meeting for final touch up.den home.my brother bought chicken wings and otah for bbq.went seletar bridge to bbq.lucky i didnt lose my voice. sundae had turtle soup for breakfast cum lunch.yummy!! nite time went for indian food coz my father's worker gave a treat. not bad. first time i ate indian food. they didnt have plates.everything was served on the banana leaf.

mondae op. think i enjoy it and was quite satisfied with my performance. after tt went lunch at pizza hut with yenling and qiao.had Curry Zazzle baked rice. they were gg for job interview at redhill. had nth to do so i followed them. filled in the form for fun oso. den we walk past this shop tt sells toys for kids. the toys help in building the kids' IQ.we stayed there for almost 2 hrs. the man even taught us how to play a few games coz he tot we wanted a job there.the games were fun man. we play till we forget the time. went back by mrt. lucky i found a seat coz my leg cannot tahan le.ate dinner at northpoint with my friend.den home!!my mum bought bbq stingray and otah for me oso. i eat and wait for her to finish bathing and join me but i failed. fell asleep on the floor while eating stingray. wonder how can my mum managed to bath for 1hr in the bathroom woke up and found out tt my mum finished the stingray. had a otah den went to my mum's bed and fell asleep again. think i woke up in the midnite and sleepwalk to my bed. haha;)

tuesday training in the morning den afternoon went agatha's house to play ps2 with charlene.so fun.especially the bomberman. i was screaming all the way. i very lousy, keep dying de. cannot blame. who ask me cock eye and greedy. keep looking for egg and life jacket and neva see the bomb. but char damn pro la. keep winning. had a nice day at aga's house. heyx, thanz agathaaaa!!!

oh ya...and yenling cheerx yea~:D anywae yenling, u got burfdae mehx??? hahaha:P now gg 6am le. buaix!

2005-11-13T21:30:00.000+08:00

going for greyish colour...hehe..new blogskin:)

OP in abt 12 hours time...help..need to go memorise script le.nitey!! :P

2005-11-07T20:58:00.000+08:00

Fever...so didnt go training todae.did PW at hub den went home.feeling alrite le so bought mac's large fries...ate it..after a while, my temperature rise again.the moral of this is that do not eat junk food when u are sick.

anywae had panadol le. should be getting well soon. heex..

2005-11-03T22:03:00.000+08:00

Heard that eating chocolates can make one happy. its a lie. i ate almost one whole packet of M&Ms and i dun feel any better.

2005-11-03T20:51:00.000+08:00

h0lidayS n0w. yet, i dun feel happy at all. i am becoming a loner. i like to stay at home but nobody's there to talk to me. and i learned wad is loitering. people who IS suppose to be at home with me is not. Why??? i hate this. i really dun like this kind of life. how i wish there aren't any holiday. or can i have training everyday?? i might feel better that way. i feel like crying. but i dun want to cry. i dun wan to flood myself with tears every now and then. i am sure how i feel now is worse than being in hell:"(

i wish i can confide to someone. but can pple understand how i feel?? dun think so. pple around me are so much luckier den me, however they dun cherished it. sad......

2005-10-08T01:35:00.000+08:00

i cAnt gEt to sLeep, cAnt c0nceNtraTe 0n mY pHysiCs. Maths N cHem papERs iS stiLL iN mY heAd. Wad iF i fAil 1 0f tHem 0r b0tH...mY ec0ns sUre fAil dE. i HavE n0 m0Re sUbjEcts t0 uSe lE. wAd if i cAnn0t gEt pr0m0tEd?? iT sHall bE mY oWn fAulT...c0z i didNt fEEl liKe sTudYing f0r pr0m0s N i hAvE bEen sLackinG wHen tHe 0tHers Are sTudyiNg s0 hArd.

fEel liKe dR0wNing mYselF in driNks.....v0DkA iCE?? bArcArdi??? n0t g00d en0uGH....hElp..............:'(

2005-09-04T17:56:00.000+08:00

Hell0!! 2 months never bl0g le..wonder if my bl0g misses me..hehex...lazy to blog anywayx.but todae.......todae.....suddenly got the urge to bl0g and here i am... hahax..2 months realli fly pass manx.i still remember 1 and a half month ago, i said i muz start studying for promos and not wait till the last minute...and then...now left 1 month and i am still like so carefree....haven even start on any subject..it always turn out this way..i dun understand..can someone juz give me a kick in my butt so that i can move forward???

My PW....todae had meeting at 10am, national library...didnt do much..sat there...add some little things into part of the survey analysis...den sat there and stare into space...i went is juz basically to be present and to pass my e0m to Teeyan so that i wun have to go down to school tml...sianx...he told me would have alot to do todae de...cheat my feelings...made me go there and slack..and this Teehong, everytime say i slack..he didnt even turn up todae..wonder where he go..

friday nite i took the survey results and did the analysis till midnite...at 2 plus cannot tahan den doze off...was msging Zz den..she sae she decided to continue studying the next morning..so i followed her..ended my PW...went to sleep..Zz say give me morning call at 7am....anyway i woke up at 9 plus..no morning call...guess she oso cannot wake up de...heex...she is the sleeping worm...she woke up later den me anyway....

tml holidays!!!! yea...can rest at home le...but still got promos muz study...hopefully i can successfully start my revision tml...haha...i am damn slack..help...tues dun think got time to study..going out to play....hahahaha...

oh yah...N fRiday was 2nd September...isabella's birthday...i share prezzie with qiaoyi and agatha...anyway..isa received alot of present...wonder she took cab home or her father fetch...when lesson end i didnt see her le...took bus with sharon...she was on her way to meet secondary school friend with qiaoyi ba....i guess..but qiaoyi went off first....chat all the way on the bus with sharon...she was turning my whole wallet out...quite fruitful yea~>>she found alot of rubbish in my wallet...hehex...

promos...promos....hope i can be promoted...and econs....dreadful man...sure gg to fail econs again...but i am going to try my best....hehex...physics...i am dead for physics...all the chapters after circular motion is terrible....i dun noe wad the teacher is talking abt in class...but i still keep nodding my head...help!!!..blame it on my head...understand nod...dun understand oso nod...die die...chem was alrite....maths...hmmmm...integration...i hate it!!!! my tutorial are all in a mess...cancel here and there..but cant blame anyone...i lazy to do...haha...:P

aNd last tuesday...we had friendly against pasir ris sec...we won...haha...so happy..think our team not bad ehx...but that day i wasnt in my best form coz of some reason la...hmmm...abit slow in receiving balls...and my eyes...help...cannot see the ball clearly...how...blame the eyes ba...training going to stop for 1 month...think after 1 month i will be back to basics...have to train all over again...i hope we can still have training once a week...if not i will grow fatter oso...since i pon PE everytime...i still owe 1000 skipping...mr fung neva cancel for meeee!!!!..damn~..

Think i blog quite alot le...hehex....u pple out there, welcome back to read my blog.....i noe u all like to read my bl0g...hahahahaha......:oX

2005-07-01T23:54:00.000+08:00

hMMmmm...exAms are ovEr lE......yEEeaaaaAHHhh.h.......so happY...wenT to seoul gArdEn yEstErday aFtEr pHysiCs papEr..todAe weNt kb0x dEn pasTamAnia.wAh...sPend qUite al0t iN tW0 dAys mAnx...tMl sTill g0t bbQ....g0inG t0 dRink dEn sUre hAfta sPend al0t $$ aGain....nExt tUesdAy sEntoSa....eilEEn's n0t fRee t0 g0...0nE leSS peRs0n...iSa 0s0 n0t g0iNg...sHar0n 0s0....liKe al0t n0t g0ing....tMl bbQ g0t sTay 0Ver....yEar1s 0nli i sTayiNg....EEeeee....wHy liddAt De......hAte iT man....

oH ya....lAst m0ndAy i jUz wEnt sEntoSa...mY br0tHer's birThdaY aNd wE wEnt dEre t0 cElebrate...tH0ugH i wAs siCk tHe dAy bEf0re....s0mem0Re g0 sEE d0ct0r aNd haVE injeCti0n...bUt i stiLL g0 sEnt0sA tHe neXt dAy witH sliGht fEvEr....aNd sEeing tHe d0cT0r isn't fUn at All.....mY muM wEnt t0 tEll tHe d0ct0r tHat mY neCk abniT sw0llEn dEn tHe d0ct0R sAe yAr abit....wAh liEw...sCaRed mE...liKe i kEna cAncEr......siAo 0nE.....bUt tRutHfUlly abiT sw0llen lA.....dEn mY mUm aDvisE mE n0t t0 sH0ut t00 muCh during tRaining...dUn thiNk iTs g0t anythiNg t0 d0 wiTh sh0utinG riTe??....bUt tHink i wiLL stiLL lisTen t0 hEr la...hAHa...i 0nlY like tHe paRt 0f tHe injEcti0n wHen sEeinG tHe d0ct0R tt dAy......i aCtuAlly wAtcH tHe wh0lE injEcti0n...heex...vEry fun lEhx...

laSt wEEk 0F h0lidAys....didn't rEalli sTudy....wEnt 0ut 0n m0ndAy, tUesdAy, wEd aNd tHurs....sTarTed 0n fRidAy...hAha....n0t iN tHe m00d t0 sTudy aCtuaLLy.....m0ndAy's eC0ns teSt iS a mEss...eSsay quesTi0n eVery paRt i wr0Te 0nE paRagrApH 0nli....w0ndEr wAd tHe tEachEr is gg t0 saE....dRq tHe laSt quEsti0n i fElt s0 sick wHen l00king aT tHe quesTi0n THat i leFt iT blank aNd wEnt 0n T0 tHe mCq bEf0re tiMe eNds....mCq aNyh0w Guess....i wAs r0llinG mY eRaser f0r answers....iF i cAn gEt m0Re tHAn 20 f0r eC0ns iT w0uld bE a Surprise.....

tuEsdAy....mAths aNd Gp wAs 0kiE....jUz h0pE i cAn paSs mY GP......anyway tHe hAll wAs dAmn c0ld...n0t a very g00d envir0nMent f0r eXam...i rAther tHey usE tHe fAn.....mY fingErs wEre fr0zEn.....brAin frEEze....cAnn0t tHink aNd write....wEdneSday cHem....mCq is tHe w0rst...i rolleD mY eRAseR aGain...bUt firSt qUestion i copiEd tHe pErs0n bEsidE mE dE aNswEr.....i sAw sHe vEry c0nfiDently circle tHe aNswer ma....den i Duhno h0w t0 d0...s0 copY hEr's lo...sEcti0n B aNd C wAs aLritE....phYsiCS i l0vEd tHe mCq...tT's tHe 0nli pArt i Am c0nfiDent....sEcti0n C eSsay qUestion....aLL 3 Question s0 haRd...dUno wHich 0nE t0 ch00se....sEcti0n B i dIdn't d0 tHe wh0le 0f QUestion 5....c0Z i dUno wAd's viScouS f0rce....i hAd mEntAl bl0ck wHen i sAw visc0us f0rcE....i sTudiEd iT in The cAnteeN bEf0rE eNteRinG tHe hAll dE..diAoz......lEt's h0pE i cAn pAss 2 sUbjEct And GP.....n0 nEEd sEe prinCiplE can lE...mY mUm sAe sHe wUn g0 ANd sEe tHe principAl De if i kEna......sHit Man....mUz prAy hARd........

2005-06-11T23:37:00.000+08:00

siAnz...i aM b0rEd........aNd thiS cHuh0nG iS f0rcinG mE to chat witH hiM....diAox~..haha....remind mE pplE....that i Am goinG t0 kick hiS aSs tHe nExt tRaininG i sEe hiM.....

sEri0uslY.....talkinG aBt mY vbAll sKills....mY pEak is rEalli 0vEr lE.....hAve bEEn tRaininG f0r aLm0sT hAlf a YeAr aNd still cAn't gEt bAck wAd i hAd wHen i wAs sEc 4....rEalli fElt vEry depRessinG aT timEs durinG trAininGs....fEel liKe giVinG iT uP......wAd cHuhonG sAid 'u can peak again, and peak higher the next time'.....this iS oso wAd i wAs h0piNg f0r thiS half yEar.....bUt iT sEems rEal haRd.......

My l0ve f0R y0u hAs sink t0 tHe b0tt0m 0f tHe 0Cean...

2005-06-11T22:44:00.000+08:00

hAd tRaininG 0n wEd anD fRi...l0st t0uCh lE...plAyeD bAdly...

wEd g0t 3 nEw girlS wh0 cAme f0r vBall tRial.tHe pasiR riS 0nE wAs g00d.hMMmmm...tHiNk sHe plAyEd bEttEr dEn me.yEar2s wEnt t0 plaY 0s0..s0 l0ng neVa plaY wiTh tHem lE..fElt s0 g00d..hAd lUnch Den h0mE t0 sLack.n0 0nE wAs aT h0mE till abt miDnigHt.hAd mY 0wN dinNer.siAn~....

tHurs....m0rning wEnt sCh00l f0r ec0ns whiCh i dUn uNdErsTand a w0rD sHe sAe.jUz c0py aNd c0pY tHe AnsweRs.dEn pW mEeting wHich wAs liKe 15 miNs?? dEn very b0rEd aNd wAs feEliNg l0W aFtEr wAd hAppeNed tHe niTe bEf0re.didn'T fEel liKe g0iNg h0Me s0 eArlY...wEnt bEd0k liBraRy t0 slAck.did nEwspApEr aRticlE, rEad s0me b00ks aNd c00kiNg b00ks.qUite iNtEreSting.b0rr0WeD 2 b00ks aNd went h0me.rEaCheD h0me wHicH wAs eMptY exCept f0r mY br0tHer wH0 wAs sLeepiNg.wAtCh tV till niTe.hAd dinnEr wiTh mY br0tHer.wEnt f0r a dRink.hMMm....bArcArdi.s0 l0ng neVa dRink lE.fElt s0 niCe aFteR tHe driNk.wAs mSgiNg zZ aT tHat tiMe.tH0uGh i dRaNk bUt i tHink sHe sLept 0ff eArlieR dEn mE...hEEx...

fRi g0t 2 nAs aNd 2 pAsiR riS de.3 0f tHem wEre g00d.i wAs plAyiNg dRuNkeN vBall aFtEr laSt nitE's dRink....fElt s0 slEEpy.lUckY eilEEn wAs tHere.sHe wAs mAkiNg a l0t 0f n0isE wHicH eNc0urAgEd mE t0 sH0ut dUring tHe gAme.hAd a fEw niCe gAmes.aFter tRaininG hAd luNch opP0siTe sCh dEn g0 h0mE lE.eVeryb0dY liKe vEry bUsy liDdAt.d0Txx.......wEnt h0mE.ntH t0 d0.dEcidEd t0 hElp mY mUm m0p fl00r.mSging zZ aGain till 12 plUs.i d0zEd 0ff.w0kE uP sUddeNly aNd rEply hEr.aFtEr a wHile n0 rEply fr0m hEr....gUeSs shE slEEp lE.i wEnt t0 slEep 0s0....

t0dAe.slAck aT h0mE.i wAs in fr0nT 0f tHe tV tHe wh0lE dAy wiTh pHysiCs KinEmatics n0tEs iN fr0nT 0f mE....0nlY t0ucHeD 3 oR 4 paGes.paThetic...i sTill g0t eNgliSh c0mp0 haVen d0.neeD hAnd in bY 14th jUne....i think..and t0daE isH.....11th juNe!!!! hElp......i wAn t0 wRitE bUt tHe pr0blEm iS i dUn0 h0w t0 sTaRt a comp0.....hAix..

we were stranger, starting out on a journey.
never dreaming, what we'd have to go through.
now here we are, i'm suddenly standing...
at the..beginning with you.
no one told me, i was going to find you.
unexpected...what u did to my heart.
when I lost hope...you were there to remind me.
this is the start.....
& life is a road, i wanna keep goin'
love is a river, i wanna keep flowing.
life is a road, now&foreva, wonderful journey.
i'll be there, when the world stops turning...
i'll be there, when the storm is through
in the end, i want to be standing
at the beginning with you.

2005-06-05T21:10:00.000+08:00

tHe fLu virUs vEry lihAi.tHink it affectEd mY doG.mY d0g snEEzed contiNuousLy f0r 6 tiMes lAst niTe aNd 9 timEs jUz n0w beF0re dinNer.br0Ke rEc0rD.hAhaHa....so cUte...anywAy g0d blEss mE...mY n0se iS vEry vEry itChy....nEEd t0 go snEEzEd....excUse mE....-_-"

2005-06-05T09:55:00.000+08:00

hElp me......fLu virUs visitEd me.....b0riNg dAys aT h0mE.....hAd bEen tHr0wiNg mY tEmpEr aR0uNd tHe h0uSe......g0t t0 c0ntR0l mYself mAnx......

wiSh eilEen g00d luCk f0r hEr vBall mAnx...pplE, prAy f0r hEr......sHe neEds 0uR bEst wiShes.....hEEx :P

2005-05-28T20:57:00.000+08:00

so tired after 3 days of sports carnival. titans......tot i wasn't going to survive.but i did it.our team did it.gamma got it.we were the champs for the consecutive 6th year if i am not wrong.so happy....though i having muscleache all over.

1st dAy of sports carnival.

had the individuals.i ran 5km without even knowing the route.shocked when i saw the slope.walked a few times.couldn't catch my breath.came in 14th.not bad lar.den squat-thrust, i did 78.sit-up,did 95. shuttle run, duno timing. incline pull-up, did 22.stitch after shuttle run.hand cramp after incline.applied lots of dEEp hEat.wEnt home den found out toe was bleeding.hEEx...wEnt back to school lata and stay overnite.

2nd dAy.

it started with 28km run.vballers preparing for run.i was sleeping on their bags.so comfortable with the strong wind.haha.i didnt have to run coz i am a titAn.heex.vballers finish running den go home le.left me.PW meeting den find eileen.had nasi lemak opp school for breakfast.den help ot in the pe office.i did nth much.arranged the sizes of the jackets only.slept on them.so comfortable.went to watch badminton after that.they lost but they did well too.especially lisi.felt quite sad for them.back to school for titans after that.team event.the log was damn heavy.applying dEEp hEat throughout the event.did sit-ups, chest-press, bicep curls, shoulder-press and squats.i couldn't do bicep-curls coz of my back.sad manz.but i tahan the rest of the event.we broke record for chest-press, 428.we were like machines going up and down continuously.so steady.gamma won for the day.we were cheering like mad.it boost our morale.so happy!!

3rd dAy.

woke up late.went school late.who cares.den soft volleyball.den volleyball.so sad couldnt play.onli did stretching with them den i need to go for titans le.applied dEEp hEat again.titans team event 7km run.neva run b4 oso.but it wasnt tiring.did it in 44mins 9sec.den watch the guys do log-throw.we were the best, 104 throws.almost twice of the other teams.the guys were so steady at it.last event was log relay.we were second.not bad.watch the telematch.and prize presentation!!surprised that i got 6th for individual.chao xiu got 3rd, the other two got 10th and 7th position i think.titans champions was GAMMA!!!jumping like mad at that time.after so much hard work, it was worth it.overall champion was delta.gamma got second.ate the food after that.so delicious.sherry was down dere da-baoing.so funny.chao xiu didnt eat enough.haha.went home after that.

three days is over.so fast.at first i told myself that i wont join titans next year, but now i will reconsider it.think i will join again next year.nice and happy memories during these 3 days.miss titAns.miss my titAns mAtes.miss dEEp hEat.we fought together and we won.really miss the whole event.hope next year titAns will come fAster.......

2005-05-07T23:11:00.000+08:00

vEry l0nG nEva visiT mY dEareSt bl0g lE.s0 bUsy. s0 sTrEsseD. s0 c0nfUsed. 0H mY g0d....wAd's hAppEninG???!!

lasT lAst wEdneSdAy 27thApril wEnt 0ut wiTh eIleEN liSi aNd tHeir fRiend. aTe t0W hUay, diMsUm, pizzA aNd r0ti b0y. wEnt kEluN's h0usE t0 wAtCh dVd. s0 fUn. liHuI j0iNeD uS dUrinG diMsUm. eNj0yEd tHat dAy. neXt dAy vBall b0yS sEmi-fNals. tHey w0n aJc 3-2 aNd g0t iNt0 finAls. fElt s0 hAppy f0r tHem. bUt sAd f0r mY tEam. wAdsmoRe JJ g0t iNt0 finAls.

fRidAy p0n sCh. tHurSdAy niTe wAs mSginG zZ aNd sHe sAe sHe wiLL g0 sCh tHe neXt dAY tH0uGh sHe sAd. dEn m0rNing cAme. Zz's mSg thAt shE ovErslEpt aNd wAs aT h0mE. s0 cUte~wH0lE dAy wAs spEnt cHattiNg wiTh hEr, d0inG s0mE hMwk aNd hElp mY mUm wiTh gR0cEry. h0w niCe t0 bE aT h0mE 0n a fRidAY. plUs lab0uR dAY 0n m0nDay, i rEstEd f0r 4 dAys iN a r0w. m0ndAy wEnt tRng dEn aTe aT tHai eXpRess. iN tHe eNd wEnt aiRp0rT t0 sTudY wiTh r0n, cH00nfU, iSabElla, aGatHa aNd wAntinG.

tHe rEst 0f tHe wEek wAs tErribLe. dUrinG leSs0ns i wAs liKe hUh hErE hUh tHere. i nEva d0 ec0nS hMwk, cHem hMwk, physiCs hMwk. i wAs t0tally liKe a bLur s0t0nG. g0t bAck ec0ns tEst wHich i c0pied fr0m tHe n0teS duRing tHe tEst dE, i fAileD 9/25. tHursDay cHem tEst, fRidAY physiCs tEst. g0inG t0 d0 bAdLy f0r b0tH.

fridAy aFter phYsics mAkeup m0cK sPa, wEnt t0 wATch m0viE "h0usE 0f WAX" witH isAbElla, aGatha, wAnting, shAr0n, qiaoyi, yEnlinG, r0n, ch00nfU aNd bEnjamiN. tHe st0ry ploT wAs nicE aNd tHe picTuRes aNd aCti0n aNd bl00d Was eVen nicER. s0 c00l. tHe bl00d aLL fl0w liKe tAp wAtEr dE. n0t vEry sCaRy f0r mE. bUt i wAs scAred bY yEnliNg. sHe wAs sittinG bEsidE mE. hEr sCrEAms wEre tErrible. n0 w0nDer n0b0dY dArEs t0 siT witH hEr. i alm0st bEc0mE dEaf. tHat wAs still 0K uNtil hAlfwAy i l0wEr mY hEad aNd l00k d0Wn aT mY leG. i sAw a heAd in fR0nT 0f mE. iT wAs yEnliNg's hEad. sHe wAs lEaning t0wArds mE. dEn iT g0t w0rSe. sHe sUddEnly h0ld mY hAnd. sCare tHe hEll 0uT 0f mE. i fAstEr sHake hEr hAnd 0ff. tHink sHe cAn 0nlI wAtch sCarY m0viE wiTh hEr b0YfriEnd. aFtEr m0viE wEnt t0 eat l0ng j0hNs. dEn sh0p dEn wEnt h0mE. sit bUs 8 witH sCary yEnling. tHe buS wAs rEally fAstEr dEn tHE rESt. reAcH h0mE in aB0ut 40 mins.

t0dAy dEcidEd n0t t0 g0 tRng. wEnt 0uT t0 bUy tHinGs dEn bAckEd h0mE t0 d0 hmwk. didn't d0 muCh.

ineFficient syStem 0f mE.

aCtually i dUn fEel liKe g0iNg tAiwAn lE. c0z 0f s0mE pr0bleMs. s0methiNg hAppeNeD aNd maDe mE cHangE mY minD aB0ut g0inG t0 tAiwAn. jUz n0W mY fAtHer cAme bAck aNd hE sAid s0mEthing wHich wAs fUnny 0nlY pHysicAlly. i lAugHed bUt dEep d0Wn iN mY hEart i fElt it, i kn0w h0w hE fEels. rEally cAn't fiNd aNy w0Rds t0 dEscriBe mY fEeliNgs n0w..........

2005-04-23T10:30:00.000+08:00

Long tiMe nEva bl0G l0. t0dAe iS sAtuRdAy aNd hErE i aM on tHe c0mpUtEr. nAti0nals iS 0vEr lE. wE r 0uT. cAn't bElieVe iT. w0n mJ, l0sT t0 Jj & aJ. s0mE tHinGs aRe jUz fAtEd t0 bE. t0 tHe yEar1s, w0rK hArd f0r nExt yEar bA. wE cAn d0 iT dE. nExt yEar's g0Al iS t0p f0uR. yEar2s, iTs a piTy tHat wE cAn gEt iN. bUt iN mY miNd, t0gEtHer wE r a sTr0nG aNd g00D tEam.

nAti0nAls 0vEr. bUsy wiTh w0rK l0. 0wE l0ts 0F hMwk. g0t bAck cHem tEst, i fAilEd tErriBly, 11/26. nEed t0 cAtcH uP lE. tHis wEekeNd g0t eNg, cHem aNd maThs hMwk t0 finisHed. m0n g0t ec0nS tEst!!! i hAvEn eVen sTarTeD 0n 0nE w0Rd. wAdsm0Re, t0dAe g0t cLass bBq. g0inG 0uT tiLL lAte. dUn tHink i g0inG t0 sTudY 0R d0 aNy w0rK aFtEr tHat. :X

g0T mY PW gR0up. aT firSt t0t tHeY vEry sLacK de. bUt i cAme t0 rEaLised tHat wE 4 pErs0n t0gEtHer maKes a hAppY fAmilY. wE wErE all vEry eNthu. hAd firsT mEetinG lAst niTe 0nlinE. cAme Up wiTh a 3 t0piCs. wE wEre aCtuAlly sNatChinG t0 d0 tHe PIs. cAn u bElieVed iT??? mUz d0 wEll f0r PW. mY gR0up's AimS aNd G0alS: A1 f0R eVery0Ne. eNj0Y bEinG iN tHe gR0up. iT a hArdw0rKinG aNd fUnny gr0up. U wUn gEt b0Red beiNg iN iT. hAha. wiTh j0kErs aNd lAmeRs ar0uNd. i bElieVed i Am 0nE 0f Them. HeeX....

n0 traininG tHeSe fEw dAys. h0pe wE cAn sTart tRaininG eArliEr. i hAve bEen eAtiNg al0T tHeSe fEw dAys dUe t0 dEpRessi0n. gR0winG fAtter lE. tJ boYs tEam iN qUaRtErs. w0n 1 mAtch. sTill g0t vJc aNd NyjC t0 wiN. h0pE tHey can gEt inT0 t0p f0uR. i bElieVe tHey cAn d0 iT dE aNd mAkE Tj vBall tEam pr0uD. nExt yEar tHe GiRls wiLL aLs0 mAke tHe Team pr0uD. yEa~

2005-04-07T22:35:00.000+08:00

i cAnn0t c0ncEntratE 0n eVerythinG tHat i diD tHeSe fEw dAys. nEvA slEEp iN leCtUres lE bUt dReaM iN iT. tUt0riAls aRe s0 b0riNg, i aM alwaYs cRappiNg iN tUt0riAls. nEva fAil t0 sLeep wHen d0iNg hMwk eVerydAy. vBall iS in a mEss f0r mE, dUn fEel rEady f0r c0mpEtiti0n yEt aNd c0mpEtiti0n sTarTs nExt wEek. sHit...

t0dAe sUx mAn. pHysiCs tut0riAl i nEva d0 tHe w0rK aNd i cAnt sEEm t0 uNdErsTand wAd tHe tUt0r iS taLkiNg abT. gP 0s0. dUn uNdErsTand wAd tut0r taLkiNg aBt. dUhn0 wAd liNkeRs aNd qUalifiErs dE. s0 iRRitAting aNd sHe kEEp aSkinG mE t0 aNswEr s0mEm0Re. dReAmiNg iN cHem lECtuRe aNd i 0s0 dUn hAve thE nEw n0tEs. maThs wAs finE c0z i nEva sLeep bUt vEry b0riNg. eC0ns leCtuRe iS tHe w0rsE. tHe leCtuRer wH0 hAppeNs t0 bE mY tut0r wAs rAttlinG 0n liKe a tRain. s0 fAst. i wAs tRyiNg t0 cAtch wAd sHe wAs sAyinG, lEaving l0tS 0f ???? aB0vE my hEad. pHysiCs lEctUre wAs tHe laSt lEss0n 0f tHe dAy. i cAnn0t tAhAn aNym0Re s0 i juz sLepT. tErribLe dAy iN sCh00l~

wEnt t0 cUt mY hAir. tHe idi0tiC pErs0n cUt mY hAir t00 sh0rT f0r s0mE paRts aNd 0w vEry hArd t0 tiE. dAmn iT. bUt 0vErAll wAs 0kiE.

1500m 0N tUesDay. tHat rAcHEl TANG, a biG fAt sUckEr, sHe g0t cHampi0n. w0n d0nGxiAng bY hAlf a f00T. sHe s0 aTtituDe, sEE hEr fAce u will fEel liKe pUkiNg. i g0t 6th 0r 7th niax. vEry l0usY. mR g0h wAnt mE t0 rUn X-c0uNtRy. i sTill c0nsidEriNg. iTs 0n 13 apRil lEhx, iN btW vBall c0mpEtit0n. sH0ulD i j0in??? hEEx....

sEeing hiM in sCh00l iS aLwaEs a HI 0r a BYE niAx. k lA. bEttEr dEn nTh. aNiwAe, mE nEEd t0 c0ncEntRate m0Re 0n mY sTudiEs. MUz d0 hMWk!!!!!

2005-03-27T21:35:00.000+08:00

sH0ulD i bE hAppy 0r sAd??? hiS mEssAge lEft mE wiTh l0tS 0f t0ts. i aM vEry c0nfUsEd n0W. aNyb0dY wAnts t0 hElp mE s0lVe tHis pr0bLem?? i Realli nEed hElp. dUn tHink i aM g0inG t0 bE iN tHe m00D f0r vBall iF i d0 n0t gEt tHis clEar. -_-

n0t iN tHe m00d t0 uPdAte n0w. sHall d0 iT s0mEdAy. cYaz.

2005-03-24T21:35:00.000+08:00

sAw eUnicE's bl0G. wElc0me wElc0mE. i sTill rEalli h0pe u cAn c0mE bAck t0 tJ. dUn givE uP. sTill g0t cHancE. al0t 0f mY fRiends aPpeAleD iN. if u cAnn0t eNtEr tJ, i g0nnA miSS yA l0tS. mY dEar dEar eUnicE, g0nnA miSS u tHis tEddY bEar, miSs yA cHubbY cHeekS, misS uR lAugHtErs, miSS u sCrEAmiNg aT mE, aNd m0sTly miSS irriTatiNg u (eSpEciAlly iN leCtuRe tEsts, rEmembEr eC0nS??). i wAntEd t0 cRy wHen i rEad uR bl0g. i aGree witH aGathA. liFe's jUst uNfaiR. eUnicEeeEeeee.........l0vE yA l0tS!!!! ^_^

tUeSdAy's tRainiNg. s0mE weRe hAppy, s0mE weRe sAd. rAchEl, cHeeR uP. dUn sTrEss ursElf. u aRe d0iNg fiNe.

0RieNtAti0n 2 wAs fUn eXcepT tHat al0t 0f pplE p0n. fiRst dAy g0t tAlks s0 aBit b0rinG. mY clAss g0t 10 nEw ppLe. aLL vEry fUn ppLe. aCtuAlly sEc0nD dAy didn'T wAn t0 g0. bUt cHun KiaT bEg mE t0 g0. hE clAn lEadEr lEhx. s0mEm0Re mY clAssmAte f0r tw0 yEars lE. muZ supp0Rt hIm aNd hElp hiM mA. s0 i wEnt. cAn't blame mE, i tHis pErs0n s0fT-hEarTed dE. hAHa. yEnliNg wAs mY clAss'S OGL. sHe kEna bUlly mY mE liKe siA0. aMaziNg rAce, cG 31 g0t tHirD. w0A~!! cHeErs mAn!! bUt wE cHeAtEd aLL tHe wAy. hAha. bUt tHis sH0wS tHat 0uR cG iS quitE b0nDeD lE. hAha. 0nE 0F tHe 2nd iNtAkErs eVen iNvEntEd cHeer f0r tHe clAn. bUt iTs a c0uNtEr chEer lA. hAHa. lEarnEd tW0 mAss dAncE. m0ndAy g0t wEt gAmes. dUn fEel liKe g0ing. sHall mAke mY dEcisi0n lAteR laTer lAteR.....

tMl g0t tRainiNg. sAt 0s0 g0t. n0 m0Re eUnicE. h0W???? 1 lEss pErs0n t0 pLay wiTh mE lE. cann0t iRritaTe hEr lE. hAix!

2005-03-21T21:22:00.000+08:00

SundAy. wEnt w00dlAnds. cYcled aRounD tHe neigHb0urh00d. cYclEd pAst tHe sp0rtS sCh00l. w0A~! iT wAs vEry biG. i s0 jEal0uS. tHe tRack wAs niCe witH tHe s0ccEr fiEld whiCh iS bEttER dEn tHe 0nE tHey uSed f0r tiGer Cup. hAha. bEsidE iT wAs Inn0vA Jc, uNdEr c0nsTructi0n. 0s0 vEry biG. cYclEd till tHis r0aD wHere u cR0ss 0vEr, iTs MarsiliNg. u cR0ss bAck, iTs aDmirAltY. s0 c00l~. imAginE iF i wEre t0 sTay iN tHe middLe 0f tHe r0aD. wHeRe wiLL i bE? cycLed t0 viSta pArk. al0t 0F plAygr0unD. tHe plAygr0unD wAs vEry fUn. 0Ne wAs tHe rAbbiT tUnnEl wHich n0W iS n0t aVailaBle t0 cliMb iN c0z iT is filleD witH cEment lE. aN0tHer tEap0t 0s0. mY c0usiN t0ld mE c0z t00 maNy c0uplEs d0iNg "tHingS" iNsiDe, s0 iT wAs filleD uP wiTh cEmenT. plAygr0uNd rEminDs mE 0f mY primAry sCh00l dAys. lAst tiMe iN cH0nG b00n pRi, bEhinD g0t l0ts 0F plAygR0uNd. pLay tiLL kEna sc0ldEd bY mY mUm f0r n0t g0inG h0mE. p5 tRansfEred t0 p0icHing sCh00l. nEighb0urh00d g0t eVen m0rE plAygr0unDs. eVerydAy aFtEr sCh00l plAy tiLL siA0. lAst tiMe i 0s0 nEva tHink 0f mYsElf bEinG a pErs0n wH0 l0vEs vBall s0 muCh. i wAs 0nCe a plAyEr kEna kiCk 0uT 0f ccA bY c0aCh dE. c0z i p0n m0sT 0f tHe tRaininGs. i wAs a vEry nAugHty gAl. n0W cAn sAe bEttEr lE. gR0Wn t0 bE gUai^ liAo. hAhAha.

t0Dae nAugHty aGain. wEnt f0r less0nS tiLL 10.30 niAx. tHe rEst 0f tHe lEss0nS p0n. b0uGht uNif0rm, tHe maTeriAl vEry wierD. dEn slAck iN cAntEen. aFtEr tHat wEnt cHar's h0uSe. plAyEd p00l. tRied c0pyiNg n0Tes bUt eNd uP rEadinG lihUi's leTTer t0 cHarlenE. dEn vEry tiRed, c0z m0rniNg wEnt t0 sCh00l bY mYselF. fEll aSleep 0n cHar's bEd. tHe rEst wErE plAyinG mAhj0nG eXcept f0r cHar. n0t sUre wAd sHe wAs d0inG. tHink sHe duG 0ut hEr ph0to Album's s0 tHat sHe cAn sh0w lihUi. b0tH lihUi aNd cHar aRe rEalli wieRd. tHey wRite al0t t0 eAch 0tHer bUt i sEld0m sEE tHem tAlk fAce t0 fAce witH eAch 0tHer. sLeep, w0kE uP, wEnt h0mE. hMMmmm. b0rr0Wed tHe cHem n0Tes fR0m sHar0n. hEEx. t0dAe p0n cHem lEctuRe. cHam liAoz. i dUn uNdErsTand tHe cHapTer. hAha. laTa g0 c0pY n0tEs lE.

hAix~. i hAve a 0lDer bR0tHer. bUt i still wiSh i hAve a 0ldEr sistEr. iT w0ulD bE m0Re fUn. imAginE tHe diFFerEnce bTw a bR0tHer aNd a sisTer. maYbE sisTers aRe fAr m0Re c0ncErn aBt u aNd u cAn sHaRe uR t0ts wiTh tHem. iF 0nlY i hAve a siStEr, i wiLL hAvE l0tS 0f t0ts t0 sHaRe wiTh hEr. h0w i wiSh i hAvE 0nE~!! jUz liKe aNy0nE 0F tHe vBall sEni0Rs cAn lE. tHey aRe aLL s0 niCe. mAybE i l0nGeD f0r a 0lDer sisTer t00 muCh lE, s0 0ftEn i eNj0Yed tHe c0mpAny 0f sEni0Rs. haa. bUt h0w sAd i dUn hAvE 0nE.

t0dAe sAw hIm a fEw tiMes. bUt dUn0 wHy. i dUn dAre t0 l00k aT hiM. hAix. n0w rEgRetiNg. i pEepEd. aNd i sAw hiM wAitinG t0 wAve t0 mE. bUt i diDn't tUrn aR0uNd. sAd sAd sAd.

tMl p0sTinGs 0uT lE. tHink tHeRe aRe n0 leSs0ns tMl. bUt wE sTill hAvE t0 g0 sCh00l. dUnn0 f0r wAd. bUt nVm. aFtErn00n g0t tRaining 0s0. g0inG t0 prAy f0r eUniCe t0niTe.... h0Pe sHe gEts int0 tJ !!

2005-03-18T22:39:00.000+08:00

bEc0me a gUai kiA t0dAe. sTayeD at h0me aNd stUdy. w0kE uP at 10 plUs 11. mY mUm wAs vEry n0isY. aSkeD mE t0 g0 eAt lUnch with hEr. aFtEr lunCh cAme h0mE rEvisE eC0ns tiLL i slEEp 0n tHe bEd. w0kE uP aT aBt 4 plUs. diD maThs tiLL aBt 7. hAd mY 0Wn dinnEr. wAtch tHe 9 o'cl0cK sh0w. lAst ePisodE lE. s0 t0ucHing~. eNj0yEd it al0t. a vEry r0mAntic endiNg.

n0w i aM vEry b0rEd aNd tHe paRt 0n mY hAnd sTuNg bY tHe wAsp dUring cAmp iSh n0w vEry vEry itChy. s0mE0nE hElp mE !!! jUz hElp mE sCratCh....

i cAnt st0p thinkiNg. HmmMm.... mAybE it iS jUz fAted. hE diD wAveD t0 mE. bUt hE jUz rEfusEd t0 tAlk t0 mE. iS hE sHy 0R ???? hAix. iT is s0 hEart-bReakiNg. i aM vEry c0nfUsed. hE kn0Es aNd s0 d0 i kn0e. maYbe i sH0uld jUz f0rgEt aBt hiM aNd g0 0n witH mY liFe with0uT hiM. -_-;

2005-03-17T22:24:00.000+08:00

cAmp iS 0vEr. bAck h0me t0 mY c0zY bEd. hAha. s0 hAppiE. 3 dAys 2 niTes. tRainiNg, eAt, plAy, sLeep. cyCliNg witH eiLeen iS jUz s0 mUch fUn. hAha. sHe vEry pr0, cAn fEtcH 2 ppLe aT a tiMe. slEEpiNg wAs vEry c0lD. c0lD till u cAn fReeze liKe iCe. fiRst niTe, wAtch vBall vidEo dEn pLay aWhile, g0 slEep lE. aGatHa br0uGht sLeepinG bAg aS blankEt aNd iN tHe eNd sHe nEva usEd. i fEel s0 bAd. i nEva uSed muCh f0r fiRst niTe 0s0. rAcHel, zZ dEn mE. miDniTe i pUll tHe blAnkEt dEn rAchEl sIt uP aNd l00k s0 fiErce. dEn i dUn dArE pull aNym0Re lE. sHe s0 sCaRy....

sEc0nD niTe m0rE fUn. hAd bArcArdi aNd sUppEr, y0U tiAo aNd tAo hUay. s0 dElici0uS~ aTe al0T dUriNg cAmp. fAt lE. hAha. sLeepiNg tHat tiMe is aGatHa, mE dEn zZ. g00d mAnx. i wAs in tHe middLe. s0 wArm. hAha. n0 nEeD t0 sNatcH blAnkeT. bUt miDniTe sAw zZ siTtiNg uP liKe vEry c0lD. s0 0ffEreD hEr s0mE bLankEt. aNd wE tHrEE eNdeD uP sLeepIng iN a tRiaNglE. hAha.

t0dAe wAs laSt dAy 0F cAmp. aFtEr tRAiniNg wAs vEry tiRed. wEnt h0mE t0 bAthe fiRst. aCtuAlly g0t g0 wAtcH m0viE aNd eAt 0ut wiTh mY fRieNds dE. mY mUm c00kEd aNd i didN't hAd en0uGh slEep, aBiT AP. s0 sTayEd aT h0mE. sLeep tiLL dinnEr tiMe. n0W vEry aWakE. dinnEr t0dAe iS niCe. aTe a wH0le fUll b0Wl 0F riCe. vEry fUll~ n0w sTill hAvEn digEst finiSh, cAn fEel tHe st0maCh bl0aTed.

tiMe flieS mAnx. t0dAe iS tHurSdAy. tMl iS fridAy. dEn sAt, sUn. sCh rEopEns 0n m0ndAy. s0 fAst. i hAvEn eNj0Y mY h0lidAys eN0ugH.

jiNqUan aNd yEnliNg's gRandmA diEd 0n tUesDay. g0d blEss tHem. hE l00k s0 sAd wHen i sAw hiM iN sCh00l. jiE Ai sHun biAn. dUn tHink s0 mUch lA. hAix~

2005-03-14T23:27:00.000+08:00

i KillEd a fLy bEf0rE dinNeR t0dAe.....iT lAndEd 0N tHe wind0W aNd i "sMackEd" , iT diEd. fEEl sAd f0R 'tHe fLy'. bUt iT wAs irritAtiNg mE. t00 bAd~

tHis iS jUz t0 kEEp tRaCk tHat 'tHE fLy' wAs tHe fiRst 0nE i KillEd iN mY wh0lE liFe. g0D bLeSs iT. maY iT rEst iN peAcE..........

2005-03-14T16:49:00.000+08:00

h0lidAys!! g00D. cAn rEst. bUt g0t s0mE hMwK. dUn rEalli plAn t0 d0. aNywAy dId s0mE le. hAhaHa.

0nE wEek. 4 tRaininGs. sAturDay wEnt lAte c0z i c0ulDn't wAke uP. s0 dAmn tirEd. tRaininGs witH0ut eilEEn iS s0 weiRd. s0 qUieT. rEstiNg f0r 2 dAys=> yTd aNd t0dAe. tRainiNg sTaRts tMl aGain.

tMl got vBall cAmp. tMl g0t 4IT sEnt0sA 0utiNg. wHy mUz eVerytHinG bE cRamp t0gEtHer?? i hAftA ch00sE cAmp 0r sEnt0sA. i aM sAddEr n0w. i rEalli wAnnA g0 sEnt0sA 0utiNg. c0z iT wiLL bE vEry fUn. vBall cAmp iS jUz Vball. hAix~ sAd sAd sAd. hAvE t0 g0 tRainiNg. n0 cH0iCe. nAti0nAls c0miNg. vBall cAmp. n0 pPlE t0 sEe. tHinK s0mE yEar2s didn't wAnt cAmp. tHey sH0ulD hAf sAiD n0. dEn i wUn bE liKe wAd i Am n0w. DreadinG g0inG t0 sEnt0sA~..

tHat dAy wAs hiS birTHdAy. b0uGht pResEnt f0r hiM. aGatHa hElpeD mE witH iT. 0k lAr. g0D blEss hiM.

tMl's sEnt0sA 0UtinG............i wAnnA g0...................i rEalli wAnnA g0.............................rEalli wAnnA wAnnA g0..........................................rEalli wAnnA g00oo0o0o0..............................................................................-_-;

2005-03-07T19:30:00.000+08:00

i aM vEry sAd. i aM m0viNg t0 yiShun. aNd i hAte iT. i hAtE tHe wh0lE thinG 0f m0vinG h0usE. yisHun aNd tJc is liKe milEs awAy. wTf. i aM s0 pisSed 0ff. cAn't tHey m0vE t0 tHe eAst??. yiShuN is s0 iNc0nveniEnt. i aM g0inG t0 hAte g0inG h0mE. 0h mAn. cAn s0mE0nE hElp mE???

i aM sAd sAd Sad... i fEel liKe cRyiNg. i cRieD lAst niTe lE. f0rGet iT. wHy iS mY w0rLd cHangiNg lidDat?? i hAtE mY lifE!!! i simpLy jUz hAte eVerytHinG.

2005-03-06T11:10:00.000+08:00

g0t baCk resUlts. L1R5=>9. bUt eNgliSh g0t C5. s0 dAmn diSgUstiNG. i sUx aT eNglisH. i bLuff eiLeen i g0t 15. sHe aNd mY aNgel wEnt t0 gEt appEal f0rm f0r mE. hAhaHa. i aM s0 t0ucHed. l0lx. nExt dAy i wAs alm0sT kiLLed bY tHem.

al0t 0f mY friEnds leAvinG tJc lE. sAd mAnx. s0mE didn't eVen b0tHer t0 c0mE t0 sCh f0R tHe wH0lE wEek. aLL r0T aT h0mE. bUt i Am sTayiNg. hAve t0 c0Me t0 sCh eVen if i Dun fEEl liKe. hAix. mY mUm wAn mE t0 g0 t0 0tHer sCh00lS tHaT aRe neArEr. bUt iN thE eNd sUrE iS i wiN dE. i t0lD hEr iF i dUn g0 t0 tHe sCh00l i liKe, i wUn sTudY wEll dE. sHe hAf n0 cH0iCE. hMmMMmm. sEri0uSly it iS rEallY vEry fAr. bUt i dUn miNd la. hAHa.

wEdneSdAY hAd frieNdlY wiTh TP. l0sT m0sT 0f iT. but nVm. wE cAn d0 bEttEr neXt tiMe. :P tHuRsDay i rEfuSed t0 g0 f0r cR0ss c0uNtrY tRaininG. i wAtChEd tHem tRain niAx. hAHa. i aM suCh a laZy bUm. fRidAe n0 tRaininG. wAtCh vidE0. dEn wEnt mAc. dEn baCk t0 sCh f0r gAmmA h0usE fuNti0n. g0t bReakdAncinG, hip-h0p. c00l manx. dEn eVerb0dY wAs dAncinG. tHe f00d wAs vEry dElici0uS, tHe beSt paRt 0f tHe wh0lE eVEnt. haHa.

sAturDay traininG. aLL yeAr 1s eXcept f0r liHui. eilEen tHe liVe rAdi0 wAs n0t tHere. cAn u bElieVe h0w qUiet tHe tRainiNg cAn bE??? iMaGinE h0w cAn wE hAvE tRainiNgs witH0uT eilEEn. wEnT sUntEc t0 eAt bAn miAn aFtEr tHat. dEn wAlk aR0uNd aNd h0mE. dinnEr aT h0mE. s0 delici0uS~. bUt i wAs aCtuAlly quiTe fUll dUrinG dinnEr. tHe f00d wAs s0 niCe tHat i cAnn0t c0ntr0l mYself. eAt tiLL bl0aTeD. l0lx.

lAtA hAftA wRitE leTTer t0 mY aNGel aNd m0rTal lE. buZy wiTh tEsts tHeSe fEw dAes. tHuRsdAy cHem SPA teSt. fRidAy eC0ns tEsT wHicH i sUrE fAil De. g0t bAck cHem tEst 0n friDay. g0t 23/24. n0t bAd. sh0Ws tHat i g0t stuDy. hAHa. sTudy hAlFwaY sLeep tHat kinD. bUt tHe tEst iS all cAlculAti0n niAx. s0 n0t vEry haRd. hAhahA.

2005-02-27T22:15:00.000+08:00

tHe m0re U ppLe meSsaGe mE, tHe m0Re w0RRieD i bEc0mE.

0H mAnx!!

sT0p mEssAgiNg mE.

aLL i nEed iS juZ 0Ne mEsSaGe fr0m a pArtiCulaR pErs0n, aNd tHeRe wiLL bE n0 w0RriEs iN mE.

bUt eVen iF i wAiT tiLL tHe sKy dr0pS, i kn0E i wiLL nEvA rEceiVeD 0nE.............

2005-02-27T10:04:00.000+08:00

hAd a fEw teSt aNd t00k bAck a fEw tEst papERs lE. ec0ns 11/25. maThs 13/20. cHem 5/15. c00l aHx. bUt i tHink i nEVa fAil tHe sEc0nD cHem tEst c0z i fEel tHat i diD wEll. hAha. vBall tRaiNinG 0n tUeSdAy fRidAy. sAturDay hAd fRieNdlY wiTh sT.hildA's aGaiN. vEry tiReD wEek.

yEstErdAy aFtEr fRieNdlY wEnt t0 hAvE kFc dEn wAtCh hiDe aNd seek. vEry niCe sh0W. i w0UlD giVe iT 4/5. wAtCh iT wiTh aGaTha aNd sHe wAs s0 fUnnY. kEep c0vErinG hEr fAcE thr0uGh 0uT tHe sh0W.

i hAd bEen wAitinG f0r tHe 0 rEsulTs tHe wh0lE wEek. FinaLLy c0miNg 0uT tMl lE. h0pE i cAn pAss mY eNgliSh. g0D dAmn i Am s0 w0rRiEd. h0Pe i wUn cRy tmL. 0H mAnx........

2005-02-14T23:35:00.000+08:00

HappY vAlEntiNe's dAy!!!!

t0dAe wAs sUch a diFfeRenT dAy. i wEnt t0 sCh aNd wAs fillEd wiTh sWeeTs aNd cAndiEs. cHarlEne gAve mE a vBall maDe 0f clAy witH !n0.15! 0n iT. s0 cUte. hAha. tHankS l0tS. cHer gAve a higHligHtEr i wiTh a wHeel piNnEd 0n. s0 sWeet~ qiaoYi gAve mE sWeets. rEceivEd chocolaTe fr0m liHUi 0s0. hAha. eVeryb0dY waS s0 nicE eXcepT f0r s0mE pplE lA. aNd i aM hErE t0 aGreE witH wAd liYuaN sAe. s0mE pplE rEalli 0uGht t0 g0 eAt sHit. wAs dAmn sAd. bUt f0rgEt iT. wEnt sh0ppiNg aFtEr sCh dEn sAw lihUi, jAss aNd s0mE seni0Rs at aDidAs. wAs aBt t0 g0 0Ff t0 fiNd fRieNdS f0r dinNer lE. sAw tHem aNd i wAs al0Ne. s0 pAisEH. fAstEr wAlk 0ff. aNyWae rEaCh h0mE aT aBt 8 plUs.

tMl g0t cHem tEst. hAvEn sTudY yEt. dia0o~ sHall d0 iT aFtEr tHis. haHa. sAw s0mE niCe t0pS t0dAe bUt didn't hAd en0uGh m0nEy. s0 cAnn0t bUy. s0 sAd. hAHa. gTg sTudY lE. laCk 0F tiMe. slEEpiNg laTe t0niTe aNd slEEp iN leCtuRes tmL. hAHa.

p0n maThs tUt0riAl todAe. tHink nEed leTter. deAd lE. i g0t n0 eXcUsE. ~S0S~~